eye of the storm

2012-02-12T23:02:00.001+08:00

Ramsey of Arsenal. Just found this on facebook and noticed it happened to be too good to be coincidence? Haha no offence arsenal fans. Continue your love for Ramsey and maybe JB will be next.

Torres and Casillas! :D FTW!

RIP Whitney Houston. She has the same initial as me ;) Her voice really touch people's heart ;)

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Sunday already. February is half over. Time seriously flies. I can't stop writing dates that I can't believe is passing by so fast.

Fuh, reality huh?

I have been dead tired lately. With tuition and school and kawad and all. But I'm sure there will be a point in my life that I'll sit down and think back and miss all these moments of my life. The crest of my wave life. LOL too much physics today.

I was so tired yesterday I felt I could sleep from saturday night and wake up on monday morning and resume school then. But ea made me woke up. Ea can either make my day or make it worse depending on mr wong's mood. I'm sure I'll miss ea next time though now I might complain how tough it is. TEAMWORK! :D Not everyone understands ;) #cass

Kawad is getting better ;) I'm reliving those moments again. People who I usually walk by without looking at them are now the people who I yell goodbye to from another side of the road ;) Let's fight people! :D TO SUNLIGHT!

When people say how fun pbc is. It really makes my day. ;) This is what the seniors were talking about. This is how they used to feel. It's surreal. Right? #cass.

Junior sprained her ankle. Reminded me of how I used to sprain mine. And the tremendous pain and doubt whether could I walk back to normal. My left ankle is fine. Except.

It's a bit bigger than my right one.
When I slouch on the couch, my left foot can't touch the ground no matter how hard I try.
I can't sit crossed legs cause the ankle is bigger and it hurts LOL.
I constantly hear cracks when I move it too much.

Hehehehe :3 other than that, it's fine ;)

I'm really weird. TT I know.

People sleep at 11pm. Go to school the next day: GOOD MORNING! #superhigh

Me sleep at 11pm. Go to school the next day: #swaying while walking #eyescannot open

People sleep at 3am. Go to school the next day: fml shouldn't have slept so late #sleepinclass

Me sleep at 3am. Go to school the next day: GOOOD MORNING PEOPLE! #high to the power of infinity.

People see small dogs. O.O CUTE SHITE!

Me see small dogs. #nocomment

People see big dogs. WTF it's a bear #runaway

Me see big dogs. O.O SO CUTE!

I know TT

I shall go to a corner and draw circles now.

Bye bye

if you think you know me well,

you're wrong.

only i can tell,

who really knows me.

my weird love

2012-02-10T22:38:00.000+08:00

Okay if you guys think that I'm a little girl who like barbies or pink stuff. You're wrong. Hahaha, in fact, I'm just about the opposite.

Fuh, today I'm ready to let you guys know something shocking about me. (some of you might already knew :D)

I LOVE KILLER WHALES. A lot.

There you have it :D I really like em since I was young. I was teased because I like a fierce monster in the sea. So I kept it to myself all the time. Whenever there's stuff about killer whale on national geography I'll be attached to the tv and no one is allowed to talk until the show is over.

Why I like killer whales?

Because I watched this movie n times.

Free Willy.

Please note that this movie is very old haha but seriously it's nice. It made me like killer whales. I used to watch this everyday when I was a child apart from totoro and disney cartoons.

The sequel. :D

Tell me they're yeng please! They have white patches near their eyes which made me thought their eyes were so big but actually no. They have small cute eyes at the tip of the white patch which is like omg freaking cute seriously -.-

When I first knew how to use google. I google all day about killer whales. Printing stacks of pictures of them. That's why my black ink run out so quickly -.- But seriously, it is all over the place last time. In my diary, on my shelf wherever you go in my house, you'd see a killer whale picture. But mom threw em away TT Cause she said they were monsters TT

Killer whales are not monsters.

They kill to eat okay. If not they starve! We are all monsters that eat other living things. So don't call killer whales that, you are one too okay :D

Killer whales are also orca haha it's the same. I just like calling them killer whales cause it sounds nicer :D Orca's are like not yeng -.-

So yeah, sorry if I made you think WOW SHE LIKES MONSTERS WTF. Killer whales are cute okay.

Seeeeeeee, it's smilling at you :D

Okay sadly. I've never seen a real killer whale. Yes I haven't TT Even though I love them so much I can dive into the ocean and observe them with high risk of losing my life lol wtf, I haven't seen a real killer whale in life before. I swear I'm gonna see one one day. Maybe even a school of em!

And of course I wanna pat a killer whale also. #childhooddreamcometrue I can die of happiness if I ever touched one. Cause killer whales are not dolphins lol you can't just see one popping out in the zoo cause they're huge :D And cute :D

Killer whales in the sea, stay safeee :D

2012-02-09T21:11:00.002+08:00

you finished what you needed to do but what you did is unforgivable.

There's always a line between things. You just crossed one. Okay a lot maybe.
In fact, many people cross lines these days!
It's like they don't even exist.
Respect a little.
I'm asking for just a little not a lot.
So please, listen and follow me.

Take your pencil.
Hold it up.
Draw a line.
And don't cross yours.

You really don't wanna cross my line.

Now I can only handle things patiently.

Don't expect me to be nice to you.
If you can't be nice to people. :)

i can't stand noise

so please learn to stfu once in a while okay

2012-02-06T13:07:00.002+08:00

IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT TO BEGIN WITH.

It's everyone's.

BECAUSE I TRUST YOU AND EVERYONE ELSE.

So don't lose trust in us either.

SINCE WE CAN'T PREDICT WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN.

Unless you're god but you're not.

SO STOP BLAMING YOURSELF.

Cause to me, it's like you're giving up on everything.

SMILE.

Okay?

2012-02-05T16:42:00.002+08:00

Fuh I keep blogging lately haha maybe because I'm on my laptop almost all the time at home so I just scroll up and down my blog and add a new piece to it. What to do, I'm so lifeless. The fact that spm is this year and heck I don't even know what chapters are there in biology except introduction to biology (easiest). So yeah, let my conscience hit me soon and tell me it's time to study -.- I can't afford to do this last minute like everything else I do lol!

I think there'll be a time when I have to lock my phone somewhere and give my mom the key so that I won't touch it. To focus on exams!

Nah -.- Just making that up lol.

I really don't get people who likes to update their statuses like every minute? Like when're you eating, you don't have to tell the whole world you've having dinner cause everyone has dinner -.- If it's like a special dinner then okay scratch that. Okay I have no right to complain bla bla bla. It's just whenever I on facebook, my sis updated her status -.- And er sometimes with pictures also. Yeah what to do, she's so free, don't wanna help mom with chores and lalala-ing with the internet and facebook.

You can't judge a book by it's cover and you definitely cannot judge a person by their looks. No one trusts me when I tell em about the truth, cause everyone's just looking at the surface. Come live with me and experience how different people can be at home and in front of other people. Trust me. You'll see the difference, even if you're blind! You can still sense it no prob! :D

Okay I'm a bad person TT

Each and everyday, I come to realise yet another shocking thing about you guys. And I rather not know anything. Really.

Hehehehe, this is christopher robin :D I used to love him so so so so much lol cause he likes winnie also. Okay I still do love him :D Christopher robin isn't a name you hear everyday rightt :D

christopher robin

2012-02-04T23:37:00.002+08:00

If you read my previous blog post, you'd realise I've been blabbering about Butter Panda hehe. So I used two of her pictures and made a blog banner just like the one you're about to scroll up to see if you didn't notice. I merged two of the pictures today cause I think it's cute lol. And all credits to Butter Panda ;) (i'm not sure whether the credits are visible when I merge em so this is the whole reading I'm doing this thingy)

She's a doodle genius -.-

In this world, there's such things as a vegetarian satay.

Expect the unexpected -.-

Soon they'll have vegetarian sushi.

Or they've created that also -.-

xxxx website is useless. It's no help at all! Like seriously? I don't even understand wtf is service login and stuff. I need to consult Dr. Google to get the answers! How useless is that?! -.- The customer service isn't even like good? Mom ended up calling customer line for help and she ended up talking to a machine. See. Machines and phones are invading our planet -.- We need serious defence system weh people. I hate talking to machine seriously. Freaking me out.

I wanna watch Journey 2 :D Vanessa Hudgen's so hot seriously. Can't wit to watch it hehehehe. But with tuition tuition kawad kawad school school when will I have the time.. Maybe after SPM.

Fairy tail is so nice seriously. All the parts are so touching and sometimes I find tears dwelling. Not all the time :P It's just so nice mai god can't tell you how nice it is. Just I won't ever forget this manga ;) Perhaps I'll start watching the anime also. Okay, I have to admit, fairy tail is better than one piece. But luffy and chopper is still cute okay :D Lucy is kinda like Nami LOL. Their body is practically like the same? LOL.

I can't find a nice manga to read now. Air Gear? Nodame is seriously not nice. Even though the storyline is nice, the manga is not yenggg TT How can I continue 100+ more chapters.. Maybe I'll just borrow the movie from cass -.-

I love Christopher Robin. ;) If you don't know who is he, go google -.- He is everywhere :D

I love Peter Pan also.

Heck I love disney so much seriously -.- Never gonna get tired of it ;)

I'm supposed to sleep early. EA tomorrow.

Nites people :D

enlighten

2012-02-03T21:18:00.000+08:00

So I have tons of homework waiting for me in front but I was carefreely scrolling up and down tumblr when I spotted this new tumblr. Butterpanda :D It's so freaking cute. Erm the tumblr owner is a teenage girl and she does this cute doodles homg and it has a lot of pandas. Xue lame will definitely love this tumblr lol.

Feel free to drop by and visit her :D Butter Panda is super cute ;)

It's not everytime people actually doodle girls with short hair TT It's so cute seriously, the doodles she draw, if you're free just go scroll up and down for fun. You'll get addicted seriously.

Okay, I may sound very outdated now.

Siri. Sorry but I don't like having a smartphone that is too smart. Siri talks to you and er interacts with you? No thanks, seriously, I don't fancy having my phone being smarter than me and knows more than I actually do. I enjoy sms-ing (i think) rather than having Siri type my message out. It's not that I'm anti-apple, I like apple products but it's just Siri is freaking me out -.-

Samsung Galaxy S3. Seriously lol. I saw the rumours about it's functions and features and stuff. Er, it has face detect unlock screen whatever shite sorry my phone knowledge sucks. So it's like you see my face and err phone unlocks screen. Scary shite. Phones are invading earth, secretly ordered by their home planet in another galaxy TT Imagine looking at the screen and tada unlock. Wow, I don't fancy that lo seriously.

Okay I admit, I don't like having phones that are too smart. Siri and face detect unlock really freaks me out. Everyone is gonna smile at their phone more often than smiling at actual people. Freaky.

I hope everything is alright. It's our last year. Please let it be smooth. I believe in our friendship. Nothing is going to happen. I'm so optimistic I feel pathetic sometimes -.-

Asuhan rohani was fun today. And I wrote my chinese calligraphy. Homg people, it's so bloody nice -.- People don't people I wrote it myself. I DID LA KAY!

Oh yeah, found something really interesting on facebook ;)

【獅子座的原則】
1、能不罵人，就不罵！一旦罵，就往死裡罵
2、騙我可以，但不要被我知道
3、我可以容忍，但別超過我的底線
4、我可以裝傻，但別以為我真傻
5、不喜歡就是不喜歡，說啥也沒用
6、任何的真話，我都能接受
7、對我真心的，我會雙倍回報
8、對於裝熟者，不留臉面

This is so me.

2012-02-02T19:09:00.005+08:00

现在唯一能告诉自己的是，明天一定会更好
现在也只有那个可以安慰自己，明天会更好
现在我知道只有漫画能让我离开现实，但我知道明天会更好

因为我相信

already february

2012-02-01T18:02:00.000+08:00

This was us five years ago. Graduating from primary school. So small! :D

And this is us five years later ;D Almost graduating secondary school. Please tell me I grew up lo.

We used to do crazy stuff together.
We used to run around together.
We used to do almost everything together.

Different secondary school really effects things.

But still thinking back about primary and talking about current school life is fun.

I need more memory space for everything that's happening :D

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Okay I'm gonna be super serious now -.- Watch me change the mood *muka 10 sen*

Don't give me super dumb excuses like I CANNOT WAKE UP THAT EARLY. I won't accept that no bloody way. Seriously, you can wake up if you want to and you can don't if you want to! It's all according to your own will. If you wanna join kawad can you please make some effort? Everyone will have to sacrifice something to achieve something ya know?! And so yeah you can't sacrifice your sleeping time?! If everyone acts like you then everyday no kawad lo! Waking up is not that bad okay?! WTF we were under the sun kawad ing and you are what?! In bed sleeping?! So unfair -.- You guys will pay seriously. I've never seen anyone given me this kind of excuse before. Apparently, there are a few today -.- Wow seriously blew my mind off. CANNOT WAKE UP. Don't talk crap to me la. If I can wake up anyone can wake up la please -.- Don't give me stupid excuses wtf. Even with my mom's disregards I still went for kawad. So yeah I don't accept lame excuses sorry.

I still can't feel the together-ness in this year's kawad squad yet. Maybe cause the ex-kawad people are so close(?) I don't know but I really hope everything can be like how it was every year. I thought this year would be like how hoo keen's year would've been. All ajks stayed back and came for kawad. Even those who are not in kawad came for moral support. THERE WEREN'T SUCH THING AS A BOY SQUAD BACK THEN. It was brought back couple of years ago. So bloody appreciate it la. Don't slumber like whatever shite la can anot. At least appreciate what the ex ajks did to bring the boys squad back.

I'll forever remember how sad hoo keen was when there wasn't a boy squad. Yet, when the girls won, he felt as if his own squad won as well. That's what 2009's ajks did. Can this year be the same? Highly doubt that. Most of us can't even join kawad this year. Do not give up easily on people. They're are members of your soon to be squad! If you give up this early, what will happen to the rest? You give up on them as well? To me, it's like you're not trying your very best yet. Don't ever give up on people that you haven't even seen their potential. But if you have and they just can't do it, forget it lol :P I hate giving up half way. There's no way I'm gonna let other people look down on us. NO WAY. You heard me.

Our school takes kawad too seriously I know about that. But isn't that what makes school life all about? I'm definitely going to miss kawad after I graduate.

On the bright side :D

Kawad really makes me happy. :) Just wish see kee was here ;) Absence makes the heart grows fonder :)

So people, appreciate the times you have in kawad. It doesn't last long. It will be over before you know it. Seriously. Life is too short and too unexpected. Okay I sound so like something bad gonna happen lol.

Gonna go start writing my essay. my early years.

all the same

2012-01-31T20:33:00.000+08:00

When people call you, and asks, how's life? And all I can say is busy. And they will go, how busy is your busy. Well, like busy till my secondary life feels full and satisfying.

I don't get those people who don't kawad.

You come to school and go back at 2.30. Err, what do you do at home? Don't tell me you do your homework or revision la please -.- I mean, staying back in school is like a big part of my secondary school life.

Kawad is an even bigger part of it ;)

Younger people are getting more and more impolite.

Perhaps, they can only be polite online or through their iPad or iPhone. I'm not shocked seriously to have heard what juniors say lately. Cause I've heard worse.

Angry? Mad? Annoyed? Irritated?

I feel none.

Just pure disappointment. And relief.

Knowing that we weren't such rude juniors when we were in lower sec, makes me relieved.

We are not one of them.

But still, I don't expect much from people nowadays ;) Expect less and get disappointed less. Just be hard on yourself but not on everyone else.

I have an essay to write -.- MY EARLY YEARS :D I can't wait to start writing :D

Erm my oral topic: formation of acid rain. Scientific I know ;) EA ma what to dooo

Okay, I got influenced by casserene iish.

Gonna see how good is nodame actually is :P

2012-01-29T21:57:00.000+08:00

Fuhhh, hard to believe school actually starts tomorrow. Good times fly :)

Chinese new year is all about taking and pau :D And often see adults saying no la no la come pai nian niddo bring something come one! If not then it's ehh! Got come got go! (translate into cantonese yourself lol)

It's good to know that people still remember my voice till now :) It really makes my day. These are the little things that make me happy easily ;)

I really need to catch up with the latest song lol -.- Cause all of them is so nice and yet I don't know what's their name lol. Cause all my mom hears to is my fm lol. my fm is everywhere now :D

CNY; friends came over as usual ;) won :D

Haha one big family. Lots missing. :(

Okay I admit, I'm so chubby -.-

Well, rushing homework now. Not surprised ehh :D

School starting tomorrow (seriously?!) haha gotta pack my bags and stuff ;)

Can't wait for 1st feb. HOLIDAY!

Even though it's not white.. TT Nevermind, I have to tolerate with colors that are not white sometimes! :O not everything is available in white TT Haha black is nice too, in its own way ;) Everything is nice in its own way ;) Whee!

KBAI!

ps: taemin is so yeng singing solo in immortal songs 2 -.- Serious shite haha he's so yenggg <3

via wireless

2012-01-26T19:37:00.000+08:00

Fuhhh first time blogging without an internet line :D Add one more thing to my first-time experience. Chinese new year holiday is going to end soon. I'm definitely not ready to start school. My homework is not done and I don't think will be lol. Will try my best though. It's like freaking hard to sit down and do homework where everything around you is so fun -.-

EA starting on sunday. (did I mention that?) LOL never mind, I just like to constantly remind myself that ea is going to start soon and I should start doing the homework if I don't wanna be dead. Holidays seem to fast! TT

Sleeping super early lately during cny holidays cause taking medicine for flu and cough, get drowsy and sleep early wake up early I'm so healthy! :D Well it's kinda like a waste of my time TT it's like the best time of the year for chinese and me chinese ma so sleeping is like #$#%@% but never mind, for my health sake :D

Played badminton just now. I can sense muscle ache shit already :D Wish me luck tomorrow :D

Went to giant for some last minute grocery shopping for tomorrow and wow, it's so quiet -.- I can see through a row of stuff without having people block my view. Most stores are stilled closed. TT So yeah FAST FAST OPEN LA!

SUPPLIER WHY HOLIDAY SO LONG!? Heh.

Going to relative's house soon :D Buh byeee

2012-01-25T20:57:00.000+08:00

*cough* Okay so happy chinese new year.

Chinese new year is the same every time every year. No change. Except maybe the fact that kids now are holding ipads and iphones and galaxy tabs instead of running around chasing each other. That's kinda disturbing when you go bai nian and everyone's like silentt. The new generation i as in iphone ipad -.-

Coughing and fluing badly during chinese new year is terrible. You can only open your eyes and stare at people enjoy the new year cookies. The only thing you can do is pray for better health next year or take a few small bites when your parents not looking -.- Still coughing non stop. Not my fault kay -.-

EA's gonna start soon and lemme tell you that I'm not eager to start that soon. Just the thought of ea is like .__. ea. Hahaha that's why I wanna buy it so quickly! I might not even have the mood to celebrate buying it after ea start. Cause ea overpower everything lol. So mr producer whoever in charge of it, please fast fast!!!

So yeah this year I haven't really enjoyed any food yet -.- ESPECIALLY THE TEA!! THE 菊花茶. I swear I drink every year non stop till I go toilet non stop -.- But this year. Not even one packet TT Yeah I'm a good girl. TT

I BALIK KAMPUNG THAT DAY! AND WATCHED HOW TO TRAIN A DRAGON ON MY COUSIN LAPTOP! Okay I watched it before. Seriously the night fury craze is getting into me again -.-

Since it's a dragon year, it's okay to love night fury also rightt? :D Although it's a viking dragon heh.

I want a night fury as a pet :D so cute -.-

KBAI

2012-01-21T20:18:00.001+08:00

I love watching movies it's like having a huge tv screen in front of you. Comfy seat and air connn! Not to mention dark dark environment! It's like sleeping, only you're watching a huge tv.

But now when I enter cinema, I have noise phobia wtf -.- Tell me you've been in situations like this before.

#1
When you're focusing on the important part, someone's phone ring and THEY FKING PICKED IT UP AND ANSWER IT WTF!? And put the recipient on speaker -.- #seetherules

#2
When you're focusing on the important part, a baby/toddler/kid cries -.- Come on parents, don't bring babies into cinema when they don't understand a damn thing -.- And please la ask your kids to shuddap can? It's like bloody annoying cannot tahan la wtf.

#3
When you're focusing on the important part, you noticed the person/family sitting beside are so stingy to buy a ticket for their child, THEY ACTUALLY ASKED THEIR CHILD TO SIT ON THEIR LAP! -.- And it rotates from mom to dad's lap and dad to mom's lap zzz Serious shite -.- If you wanna watch a movie, just buy a seat for your child la okay -.-

#4
When the characters didn't even say something funny, a kid (obvious from his/her laugh) laugh hysterically like HALO!? It's not a joke la kay?!

I watched ah beng's cny show at leisure mall -.- I had a horrible time. Okay not horrible, it's just not nice -.- Kids crying wtf -.- A woman answering her damn phone and put it on loudspeaker wtf -.- People taking a long time to move out from their seat to toilet wtf -.- KIDS CRYING WTF?! -.- Now if there's animation movie, I try my best not to watch it cause it's like -.- you get me zzz

So people, don't ruin other people's movie by bringing babies. Keep your bloody phones on silent or vibration whatever! -.- Just make sure it doesn't ring wtf.

People nowadays! Can't even enjoy a movie! Sheeeesh!

Oh yeah a lot of people asks me whether is x8 good. Honestly, no -.- Just spend a bit more money and get some better phone lol. When I bought x8, it was the latest phone in sony so yeah. But it's so laggy! Especially when you play games.

Example angry birds -.- A bird takes like few seconds to fly? And it goes motion by motion zzzz. And when you exit the game, the whole thing jams up. TT

And when you're about to receive a text message. You know it! Cause the whole phone will lag for a long time and then you know. A message is coming -.- AND I'M TETRIS-ING! SURE LOSE!

And the messages you sent is resent (yes resent -.-) twice. That happens sometimes.And sometimes the message system jams up and won't receive or send messages. The messaging system is very very erm how say, not efficient -.- NO EFFECTIVE COLLISION!

And when you send a message, it writes message sent! But actually it wasn't sent and you kept waiting for a reply. The next day you go to school: EH I smsed you yesterday weh! Why didn't reply? xxx: Don't have la -.- Plus, you don't text maxis people. Halo, sometimes I do okay :P So yeah you get my point no?

And when you go online, wow -.- It takes forever to load the page. No it's not the wifi problem. The phone just lags up. I know, maybe my phone doesn't like me. #foreveralone TT

And hor, when you are playing games EXAMPLE: TETRIS for too long, the phone automatically restarts. Oh god, even my phone tells me when to stop playing games -.-

I'm not criticizing about it, I'm just telling people more about x8 ;) So yeah if you wanna get a x8, just go get a better phone -.-Cause this is seriously LAGGY!

Okay if I have to use one adjective to describe this phone, x8, that'll be LAGGY~

But look on the bright sideee :D And least it still has a touch screen ~~which isn't sensitive~~

So yeah, I'm planning to change my phone. Cause for all the reasons I stated :D

Oh yeah, one more thing:

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR PEEPOL

We had TMC- tugasan masa cuti.

Now we have TTB- tugasan tahun baru -.-

No way I'm gonna take ang pau while doing homework :P! The homework *slaps forehead* It's a full stack! -.- Is on my shelf. So yeah, see when it'll see daylight again la :P

2012-01-20T21:35:00.000+08:00

Here is the only place where I can speak without hurting my throat whatsoever lol.

My cough turned into a sore throat and my sore throat turned into no voice.

So yeah, I had no voice at least no proper voice for today. I drank tons okay gallons okay litres just litres of water today to soothe my throat -.- Bloody irritating I wanna take it out and scrub it clean from all pain or pathogens whatevershit #don'tcare

Well there was kawad again today, felt so useless, cannot help to command or tell people their mistakes, can't even kawad cause it'll only get worse. Seriously, it's like I sprained my leg all over again, except this time it's my voice -.- LOL so ended up taking my stack of bio papers, supposed to read it ~~but ended up just holding it for sense of security to tell myself I read a bit~~ walking around school like a hobo TT

My sister was lagi lifeless okay -.- See people play basketball. But it's really funny -.- That I can't blame her. :D Okay in some way, she's like me. See people do dumb things :D

This is my last year kawad-ing and in sab, I wanna make as much memories as I possibly can. I don't wanna regret anything. So yeah, 2012 fight!

5M. Nearest class from school gate. Noisiest class I think and yet it is fun. Still, I'm not used to writing 5M instead of 4K or maybe 3J or maybe 2M or maybe even 1M. Okay 1M is long gone. But still, when I'm around form 4 block, my mind automatically is go back class- check teacher here or not- not here- celebrate!- here- okay suan liao I go into class -.- Walking back to 4K is as natural as it can be. And yet when I reach 5M I'll be like, oh yeah my new class.

I admit class is kinda less entertaining without wyq -.- Sadly yes, her cheeks gonna get firm and OMG NOT CHUBBY ANYMORE WTF!? My efforts all! Gone in the wind TT

Oh yeah -.- Some bloody mother cat gave birth again. I MEAN SERIOUSLY WTF?! Come on la! Just gave birth to another litter last year and this year even more!? Omg come on -.- Stop reproducing la okay! SAB's gonna be cat wonderland in no time zzz I can't even walk around school in peace! Imagine having camp there HOMG #worstnightmareeverwtf.

Please la cats me beg you okay?! Stay away from me and reproducing. Cause serious shite humans give birth to one or two or maybe sometimes multiples but that's rare, YOU CATS GIVE BIRTH TO LIKE WHAT?! 5-8?! Holy shite.

Someone need to create cat repellant high time -.-

Okay cats are ruining my mood zz or freaking me out lol.

Gotta go finish up ea. EA becoming famous in SAB WHOOOOOOO!!! :D Tomorrow test!

2012-01-19T20:10:00.003+08:00

Or maybe tomorrow. The day after tomorrow? Or erm until I stop coughing like a whatever coughs a lot like me -.- Fever yesterday. Coughing non stop. I sense a sore throat coming. Flu's next. My leucocytes' bloody weak weh -.- Not functioning properly. Homg, please la the only I thing I love about cny (other than getting ang pau) is the cookies! -.- The main of thing about cny is that okay!? This is not the time to get sick and NOT EAT THE FOOD I ONLY GET TO EAT ONCE A YEAR OKAY!? BLOODY HELL NO WAY! So yeah, more water. Got it. More strepsils. Got it. More cough syrup. Got it. More sleep. Got it.*coughs*

KAWAD LA KAWAD LA! SEE! CNY SICK DY! DAI SEI! Okay that's what mom said. I don't blame kawad. I blame my weak immune system. But I love my leucocytes so much heh. They just have to work overtime next time ;)

Okay I seriously sense a sore throat coming damn soon -.- wtf seriously it's a wrong time la deyh -.- Come on la leucocytes!!

Pbc meeting and pbsm meeting.

Really, after all the hard planning and running and bickering with my closest friends, it's all worth with when I hear people say 今天很好玩. Although it's simple, yet, it means so much to me, to us. Cause I know that all our efforts are not wasted. To those who don't even respect the game or ajks -.- you have no right to ask your juniors to respect you okay -.- Karma la okay. KARMA HEH! Watch out -.-

Pewira is out :D It's our school magazine name. 50th edition especially nice okay! While reading the article, I knew it's all about kawad. Nothing else can feel the same. Reading line by line, tears are dwelling and I almost teared I swear. Recalling how kawad was and how happy we were when we were announced champion. Baju putih. A moment where 31 people who barely knew each other, became team mates which then turned into close friends cry and hug each other, patting everyone on the back. We did it.

Herstory repeats itself. This year. Right now :)

*okay change of mood*

Russia is very far from malaysia right? It's like siberia?! -.- Okay no haha, but seriously where the heck is Russia? *smacks forehead* When I think of Russia, furry hats, animal coats, freezing cold temperatures come into mind. 6 years is a long long time. I'm gonna take things seriously now and think carefully. But of course la spm first wth.

Okay don't expect me to talk tomorrow. My voice gone from all the shouting at pbc and coughing. Bye bye cny cookies TT

It still feels weird having people ask for my signature lol. Seemed like last month when I did my orientation and crazy tasks. But still, high school is all about the fun! :)

Leucocytes. Overtime please!

2012-01-13T22:03:00.001+08:00

I'm learning things again. One by one. Learning that not everyone have the same thinking like me. Everyone is different or trying to be. Having simple thoughts can be insulting. Lesson #1. I'm learning how to be a better person one step at a time.

Struggling with the importance between two big part of my school life. PBC and PBSM. If you ask me which one I like more, I can't answer you because both are equally important to me. I won't let any of it go no matter what. I will do my part equally in both clubs because they matter most to me. The members matters most to me. Because at the end of the day, all we want is the members to have fun.

Complicating matters isn't going to help you in life. Lesson #2.Personal life and official work stuff shouldn't be mixed together. Please get your priorities straight because it's a busy year and being undecided is not helping anyone.

Seeing members having fun playing games we planned really make my day. It used to be us playing now it's us planning, it's us they have to chase after and get our signature, it's us who see them enjoy and laugh. At the end of the day, we'll laugh as well. So this is what it's like being a form 5. Everyday counts and every meeting is precious. It's the last year to be crazy with juniors. I'm all out :D

I feel bad for my sister having to wait for me for so long. Thanks sis :)

You say I'm childish but don't you think you're more childish than me? Till now I don't know what you are thinking or maybe what were you thinking because really it's like you have split personality. At least have some shitty respect la okay. You can't just do whatever shite you want. Seriously, disappointed with you.

Kawad's starting next week. I really miss kawad. Sunblock smell. Smacking people's cap for fun. Making lame jokes and laugh. Going through it once again for one last time. :) I'm gonna make everyday count. Shien GAMBATEH!

I might not have lotsa time to blog like I used to anymore. But I'll try :)

big or small,

lies and lies.

2012-01-09T21:02:00.001+08:00

I see mushrooms everywhere in my blog -.- I'm a bad blog keeper TT

Well, school's fine. The usuals. Early school hours and rushing to the briefing room and then form 5 block is much much cooler than form 4 block it's practically an oven there -.- Come to think of it, I'm lucky to be in 5M. I really don't have much to say. Cause school life is practically almost the same everyday.

Except that kawad is going to start soon. And yeah, I'm gonna buy another bottle of sunblock or borrow from people and start getting tanned. I'm still not used to not seeing qiu and regina all the time. So is katta pandi and sue pig, yeah I miss them tons. It feels weird being in form 5 cause you're so busy, and when you see your friends you felt like you didn't see them for ages. Padahal it's only like a few hours. So yeah, it's also hard to run to the next class to talk to people cause the teachers are freaking punctual -.-

When you make new friends, it doesn't mean you have to keep the old ones away. Something about you changed. But I'm gonna adjust to all hectic stuff this year, so yeah.

I pretty much sleep most of the time at home. Once I come back from school COUCH! Once I come back from tuition ~~forced to wake up~~ computer till late. Sleep around midnight. It's just like my holiday routine except I have to wake up early. And so far, my sis wakes me up most of the time. #epicfail

Started scribbling on my book and suddenly thought a NEW formasi. At times like this all I wanna do is live in a hostel where I can just talk to everyone whenever I like and see their faces all the time. 30 minutes is too short to tell everyone anything funny in class.

Sad thing #1.You can't share all the jokes with everyone. Cause you can't eat talk and laugh for 30 minutes.
Sad thing #2. You cannot play with wyq's cheeks. TT #emotionalbreakdown
Sad thing #3. You can't see the clumsy things wyq did. TT #secondemotionalbreakdown
Sad thing #4. You can't shout katta pandi or sue pig or reggiepig once you enter class and see their faces. #majorbreakdown TT

The thing I miss most is walking to 4K.

However,

I really feel lucky to be in 5m. At least there's people I know there :)

last 'first day of school'

2012-01-05T22:48:00.003+08:00

It seemed just like yesterday when I was in form 1 trying to make new friends and exploring the school. Now I'm already in form 5. And one decade ago, it was my first day in primary where I met lotsa crazy childhood friends. Really, the years just flew by just like that. Nothing's gonna slow down. Especially not this year.

The flowers bloomed and wilted. The trees we used to play with during LI period grew so tall we can't even see the top of it now. The small tree that used to linger around form 1 block girl's toilet was now almost as tall as the block. Noticing these small little things made me realise how long I have been in this school. Even the kitten grew into a cat -.- Yeah I know zzzz. The palm tree in the middle of the school is wilting, it's getting old TT The hibiscus doesn't bloom that often anymore. Well maybe I don't pass by there often now. I'll miss walking the path to 4K.

5M now. It's an okay class for me. The teachers are nice although some have freakin high pitched voice -.- At least cass is in the same class as me. Well I'd say most of the time -.- LOL! Since erm someone surprised us in the first day of school. -.-

Speaking of surprises, if you guys didn't notice, maybe you're blind

WELCOME TO SAB SIS!

It was a surprise for qiu and shen :P So yeah surprised?

Yeah although it has been only two days, yes TWO days, people has asked me over and over again IS SHE YOUR SISTER. Hello humans, have some common sense you guys say we look alike can it be we're not sisters -.- But then I get it, you guys wanna confirm right?! It's the same dumb question when you see someone who had a haircut and go EH!! YOU CUT YOUR HIAR?! Okay maybe it's for confirming also. I mean wtf isn't it obvious enough -.- It's not like hair fall down in lengths of lumps zz Okay that didn't make sense.

Okay another good news is there's lotsa people I know in my class :D Close ones and some previous classmates :D LUM! is in the same class as me! :D So now we can go on and on and on about cartoons and funny variety shows! :D

This year's gonna be busy I know. Cause I really have things to do tomorrow -.- And god koko starts next week. Gotta squeeze more brain juice out for interesting fun games! :D SPM date is out I think. 19-11. I shall the counting till that date comes. When's the end of the world again? -.-

CAMP CAMP CAMP CAMP CAMP

So yeah basically that's all for my first day of school. Well last first day of school at least haha. Teachers say we should back off and not be so active this year. ARE YOU FREAKIN KIDDING ME -.- f5 is like the most active year a student can be in sab lol.

I'm missing regina and qiu tons. It's gonna take some time to get used to not seeing them the whole day. Especially a girl who's been asking me what time is recess ever since form 2. Yeah now I willingly tell everyone who asks what time is recess :D Like I said, it's gonna take some time -.-

That's all I guess. 2 days down. n days to go. GAMBATEH!

2012-01-02T17:35:00.002+08:00

Haha I just thought this was very smart :P Eventually 2012 will be washed up and 2013 will come again >:D

Finally finished constructing my blog and erm waiting for unifi to be installed cause really cannot tahan unstable line. One more week!

Guess what, school's the day after tomorrow. THE DAY AFTER TOMORROW. No chiz. I'm not ready yet :P

Not ready to wear super hot super long prefect uni.
Not ready to wake up super early before super sun wakes up.
Not ready to do super homework.
Not ready to super pay attention in class.

But I'm ready to meet new people :D
But I'm ready to give people a hell of a surprise :D
But I'm ready to kawad and start koko asap! :D

So yeah, I'm semi ready for school. Cut the homework and I'm all set :D

I'm a very very messy person -.- I packed my study room again LOL! Which is erm able to be messed up in a few weeks time. Packing is TT a sad thing to do. Even though I find lotsa stuff that I lost, I end up placing them in some box or drawer then I forget where it is. I'm a failure TT Short term memory people are liddat. No cure to that.

School reopen= no more korean drama on tv! TT Currently watching one on kbs which is damn nice but yeah gotta mentally prepare not to watch it when school reopens TT

School's the day after tomorrow!! YAY(?)!!

2012-01-01T19:52:00.000+08:00

As you can see my blog is under construction now. It's not done yet cause I'm off to dinner soon. Erm I've decided not to leave a tagbox or cbox or whatever since err it's mostly people I don't know with random links on it lol! Cracking my brains to think of what to write and stuff so yeah! Anways, this is a good kick start to your new year ;) :

Once again,

Ah you read my mind.

Happy New Year

high school 2011

2012-01-01T18:55:00.003+08:00

This was us, yeah us, at the beginning of the year. Tie-less and not buttoning up our shirt. It really seemed like yesterday. :)

3 months of non stop practicing and tanning. We finally got to where we are now. #1. Let's make her-story every year :D When see kee was still in malaysia looking tanned :D 3 months flew by just like that.

One year gone by. Okay make that one year plus! Babylon. :) That was one camp I'll never forget no matter when. PBC CAMP 2010.

PBC CAMP 2011. Lei Hai Xing. Best semangat group :D I'm so proud wheeeeeee!! :D Yeah look at all the dramatic people in our group :P

Athena. SBU ONE DAY CAMP 2011. Second place :D WINNER ;)

Our masterpiece :D Lotsa missing people in this pic btw. :D

PC TEAM. All borned in july + president of pbsm.

The clubs and societies that make my high school life so wonderful :)

2011 is my past now. Moving forward 2012. My first post of the year ;) I think it's nice to have this as it :)

Cheers to the new friends we made.
Cheers to the mistake we made and learned from them.
Cheers to the steps that made us stumble. It made us grew.
Cheers to the days in 2011.
Cheers to 2011.
And cheers to 2012 :) A brand new year :D

Happy new year guys ;)

2011-12-30T23:00:00.001+08:00

Actually I'm not a fan of new year resolutions. But since 2012 is erm a big year (?) maybe I should make a new year resolution as well. Fat chance I'm gonna tick everything off by the end of next year.

I really can't believe it. It's the last week of the year! THIS IS THE LAST FRIDAY OF THE YEAR! Wow I really can't believe how fast time flies like seriously -.- I need a time machine or something. Hahaha no, as long as I live to the fullest, there's no need for a time machine :D Time is precious next year. Where there's a first, there's always a last. There'll be lotsa lasts for next year :) I think next year is gonna be fun ;D

Okay so erm my new year resolution..

1. Try to tolerate long hair
Even if it's being totally long and irritating my shoulders. But I don't wanna have messy hair for kawad competition. Much easier to bun everything up you see. So yeah believe it or not, I'm gonna tolerate and keep my hair erm until I feel like cutting it off. Well I pretty much wanna cut it off now -.- I'll try to tolerate :P Like how I did for years back then lol!

2. Watch less korean drama before spm
There's definitely lotsa new dramas coming out next year but I'm gonna resist watching and study more! :D Since ea is on weekends so there'll be less time on the computer and more time with mr wong :D I hope it helps lol.

3. Learn my sis's friends' names
Yeah I'm a sucker at memorising names -.- I always forget my sis's friends' names even though they came to our house for like tons of times zzz So yeah I'm gonna learn all her friends' names next year!

4. Exercise more
Erm yeah, we'll see about that -.- I always procrastinate about exercising :P Fingers exercising apparently, is not a form of exercising to my mom :P

5. Study harder for spm
Yeap next year SPM! Gotta work my ass off to get good results. Apparently this is how my dad thinks (in my opinion) UPSR decides which school you get into. If you get a bad school you're done for. PMR decides which stream you go to. If you can't get into science stream, you're done for. SPM decides your life. If you don't do well, you're done for as well. So yeah all government exams are my life determiners here. The manipulating factor I'd say -.-

6. Make new friends especially with juniors
I don't know why but I like having juniors as friends :D cause it's fun :D Okay everything's fun for me in a way -.- But yeah hahaha I'm gonna make more new friends! :D I made lotsa new friends this year! Reggie Leeynesh Sue Pig Jiunn Hong erm so much more la :D

7. Touch a koala or kangaroo. Correction. Touch a koala AND kangaroo
I really wanna go to aussie next year after my spm with shanice :D Cause it'll definitely be fun! I'm excited just thinking about it! :D I really hope it goes well and erm the trip is like planned out before spm :P At least then I have something to look forward to after spm right :D

8. Fly
Okay that's impossible hahaha. Cancel that!

9. Reply people's text message
Heh. Embarassing matter so yeah :P I'll try.

10. Plan awesome games for club members
Yeah that's definitely a MUST do. Since it's our job hahaha! So yeah I'm watching as much korean variety show as I can to gimme inspiration on the what games we can play :P

10 resolutions are enough right -.- Okay sorry it's 9, there's actually a lot more but some are illogical so yeah I'll keep em to myself then! I'll try to make sure I'll tick everything off the list next year end! So yeah I'm gonna do ea homework now. Last minute again :D Not a surprise at all huh.

Happy new years guys :) May 2012 be a blast (well not literally -.-) and fun filled through out the year! May it be prosperous year of dragon and best of health to everyone :D Yeah that's what I wrote on new year cards -.- So hahahaha formality is a must when sending snail mail :P

I know I'm early but I have a feeling I won't be online tomorrow :D

Pretend it's 11.59 and

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

smile more give more grow more learn more eat more (-.-)

Totally out of topic- GUYS! If you're free and you have absolutely nothing to do! Go read these blogs, it'll definitely make your day :D

Xia Xue- Everyone's Reading It!
I don't know why some people don't like xia xue -.- She's a talented singaporean blogger which is totally unafraid to show her real personality to the world! Really those people condemning about her are just jealous about how a good blogger she is -.-

Cheesie
Okay this here is a new blogger I found from nuffnang. Cheesie from malaysia blogs about fashion and she speaks japanese! CUTE MAX! :D So yeah reading her blog is really nice :D And her videos are really funny! :D

That's all :D

Till then :) I'll blog again next year :D

Oh yeah my sis told me this COLD JOKE -.-

A: HEY! Remember not to go to the toilet on 11.59pm on 31.12.2011!
B: WHY?! Is it a jinx?o.o
A: HELL YEAH! You'll be in there so long you can only be out the next year!

-.- lame right. Please tell me you get it! TT cause people really don't get my jokes sometimes..

Okay I'm really leaving now.

BYE! ^^ (okay first time using this sign lol)

ps: since it's a new year, I'm gonna change my blogskin. Heh.

last minute is my middle name

2011-12-29T18:43:00.001+08:00

It'sdefinitely time to update my blog now. I really should update it properly likeseriously I didn't even update about my christmas! TT

Okaylet's go back to christmas. I sorta forgot what I did on christmas eve -.- Erm,let me recall. Oh yeah we went out hahaha. Ate a lot of good food and came home:D And at 12 midnight, the nutcracker is most probably more hyper than ever nowthat it's officially CHRISTMAS!

Christmaswas fun :) It always has been. My christmas present this year was arm awesome:D One notebook from sis and lots of love from mom and dad. :D Had lunch aterr.. Fahrenheit yeah hahaha cause it was on the way to pav and for a personwho doesn't really enjoy dim sum much, room eighteen is definitely a good dimsum restaurant. Erm although mandarin oriental dim sum is better lol -.-

Afterthat we went to my mom's 'brother' to celebrate his birthday :D The baby boyover there grew a lot and god he's so damn cute -.- We didn't have turkeys ormistletoes under the chimney but it definitely felt like christmas there ;) Andalso, my uncle decided to watch silent hill -.- It's a horror movie which IMOST DEFINITELY DIDN'T ENJOY! It's horrorbly horrible. (okay catch that joke please-.-)

Movingon to er yeah! Well I'm actually typing on a note on another computer cause thecomputer keyboard has a jammed spacebar. Hahaha it's a sign of aging in thekeyboard family lol. Anyways, we went to get ourselves new speakers. I did theright plugging but the wrong pressing of random options but sis got it right ;DIt's really nice to finally hear a notification when someone messages you TTIt's so nice to hear some sound again!

Mysis just loves spider solitaire -.-

Okayback to the present :D which is today! Gotong royong homg. More people showedup than I thought! Which is good cause I thought not a lot of people showed up-.- The hall is a quarter filled with students and a quarter filled withteachers which makes half of the hall full. Well to be honest my arm hurts likeshite now from all the carrying and stuff -.- What I really don't get it whydoes it take 2 people to move a small wooden table when 1 is enough. Sureteamwork is enough but please la -.- One bloody table is bloody light okay -.-Some people slack like %!@#@$@#^%&* but never mind -.- As long as I does mypart it'll be fine.

There'sa new baju koko in school. The quality is better but I wish I can say so forthe color -.- Like seriously that color is like er okay no comment. Well thething is I requested for a short sleeve one. I don't know did I pronounce itwrongly or what they gave me a long sleeve one -.- HALO!? Do I look like I lovegetting sauna all the time -.- NO WAY! I just hope they still have S size when Iexchange baju koko when school reopens. :P THEY ALSO HAVE XS SIZE NOW! Wellthey should have made it like years ago -.- Before I buy my baggy saggy bajukoko.

Wellwell gotta go. Arm sores are not irritating when you're blogging -.-

ps: i don't know whatwent wrong with the fonts -.-

2011-12-23T16:24:00.001+08:00

TAHA CAUSE CHRISTMAS IS COMING! :D SANTA CLAUS IS COMING (Y)

Everyone knows physics is not my favourite subject. Erm so are other subjects but hahaha who cares -.- I have two tuition for physics today! IN ONE DAY! I'm absorbing as much physics concept as I can now. I really didn't think light can be so complicated. I'll just be thankful technology is so advance now I don't have to build one of my own microscope or telescope as my peka -.- Everything beside me is seems like it's from a physics textbook -.- Especially the camera in front of me zzz Anwar just taught us that today.

The thing is I hope all this replacement tuition I've been attending like mad is gonna make up for christmas :D Christmas is coming (yeah I know I said it tons and tons of times but who cares I love saying christmas is coming cause it makes me so excited i don't know why it's always like that since I was young bwahahahah did you know when someone's excited they don't use full stops or commas or even question marks yeah I'm so excited right now thinking about christmas oh my god I should really stop now)

But once christmas is over, so is the holidays! TT WHAT HAVE I BEEN DOING DURING THE HOLIDAYS?! It is seemed like the last day of school was last week -.- Oh god at least I don't have to do my malay tmc cause INTERLOK IS CANCELLED! :D Thank god! Lucky I haven't even started doing that tmc -.- I'll hate myself if I did :P

Actually I wanna tell you a dumb thing. When my friends said we have to do a summary on interlok I thought it was add maths -.- Cause you know you learn log in add maths so INTERLOGK is like more advanced than that :P But I'm wrong hahaha no such thing :P And erm it's cancelled so yeah it's over :P PERIOD! :D PHYSICS AGAIN HAHAHAHAHA!

I have insomnia lately. It SUCKS MAX! I go to bed at around 12.30 and then sleeps about 2 hours later -.- HAHAHAHAHAHA CAUSE CHRISTMAS IS COMING AND I CAN'T HELP IT :D Okay I'm being super sampat now -.-

Savoring every last moment of my holiday! As anwar said, this is my last school holiday, after spm, it'll be the end of the world hahaha! *touch wood* *touch wood* And next year, I'll have my last first day of school. Cause there won't be first day of school in college or university, it'll be just first day of the term -.-

TEE HEE! BUH BYE! :D

2011-12-22T15:53:00.003+08:00

CHRISTMAS IS COMING! Oh god I'm so excited seriously :D

Have been tuitioning like mad lately. I'm sure it'll all pay off. Crazy tuition hours and then christmas! :D I even have tuition on christmas eve and new years eve and new years day! Haha well guess I'm unlucky but well I'm sure I can cope with everything :D But hell no way I'm gonna have tuition during christmas.

CONGRATS TO EVERYONE WHO GOT EXCELLENT RESULTS IN PMR :D Hahaha somehow I feel like I lost the chance to be in the school hall waiting for my name to be announced cause I was in korea when the day of pmr results came out. The excitement however can be felt in korea :D I still can't forget what happened that day :D It's pure JOY knowing that my chinese was A material :D

Anyways did I mention christmas was coming? o.o Oh god sorry hahahahaha.

I still don't know what to get my sister for her christmas present. Well she did tell me what she wanted: a watch but she just bought one o.o Oh nevermind, guess it'll be her upsr straight a + christmas + birthday present all in one from me :D Cause it's not cheap -.-

I'm gonna have tuition again later. I'm tuitioning like my life depends on it -.- Hahaha actually it kinda does. :P

I feel very at peace this holiday :D I don't know why but it seem to pass real quick compare to other holidays. Maybe cause next year is crucial and I don't want it to come so soon but it'll come sooner or later. :D So yeah I'm enjoying every moment of the holidays :D I have no idea why people don't like holidays -.- I mean halo, what's better than waking up knowing it's noon and you're not late for anything!

Speaking of waking up late, I've been waking up like so late lately :D And my nosebleed's gotten worse. Well it's always been this bad but now nosebleed is what woke me up in the morning, I'll wake up finding blood dripping from my nose -.- And my bed sheet is like hahaha okay scratch that :D I remember having nose bleed when I was swimming with my cousins. I tried to hide it but it only got worse hahaha I swear they have second thoughts about going into the pool with me after that for some time.

2012 is coming. Do I believe in the end of the world? Yes I do. There's an end to everything and that includes earth's life as well. :)

Well school's definitely reopening before I know it and erm is anyone going back on 29th dec? To er gotong royong -.-

I'm grateful for what I have :) 3 more days to christmas :D And I can hardly wait ;)

I AM PRO CHRISTMAS

2011-12-16T14:30:00.001+08:00

Even though I'm not a christian, but I absolutely love christmas. More than chinese new year, yes more than chinese new year! Last year I got to spend my christmas in korea where there's snow but it didn't snow then whoosh there goes my dream of having a snowing chirstmas. But at least it's still white christmas :D

I believe in santa. I always will. I really used to believe that people dressing up at santas at shopping malls are for real! But now there's some phoneys who are lazy to wear santa's belly, thin santa -.- Come on. Zzzz. My house doesn't have a chimney and I don't hang stockings or leave cookies and milk or write to santa, I still believe santa's out there somewhere. Maybe not on earth maybe somewhere else ;) I KNOW HE'S REAL! Cause I love santa a lot ;) He's what make christmas christmas :D

And hell no I'm not going to ea on christmas! I MEAN WTF?! TUITION ON CHRISTMAS?! I don't want to have the worst christmas in my life there! -.- So yeah I'm not going for tuition on christmas, no bloody way :P! No one's gonna ruin my christmas no matter what! :P!

CHRISTMAS IS COMING! :D And god I'm so freaking excited! :D

I like the christmas carols played in shopping malls. The music centre is always filled with people playing christmas carols instead of classic song pieces. It feels so nice! :D I swear next time I'm gonna get myself a christmas tree :D And maybe move to somewhere where it CAN snow during christmas :D God I have lotsa plans.

2 weeks till school reopens. Time really flies. -.- I really like holidays. Cause I can wake up as late as I want to and do anything or nothing. Mostly nothing cause I like to sit down and watch tv even though I'm not actually paying attention to it -.- I like sitting down in front of the computer screen reading manga and let time fly by just like that. ~~even though I haven't even touch my holiday homework yet. i'm such a good student wheee!~~

There's tons of movies I wanna watch. New Year's Eve. The trailer was a shocker. What on earth happened to zac efron -.- He's so plump now! TT Alvin and the chipmunks 3. I really wanna watch this fast! Mission Impossible: Ghost Protocol. Tom cruise is so awesome :D Okay maybe not tons of movies but still, it's a lot since I don't have much time for leisure now.

I HAVE CHEMISTRY TEST TOMORROW AND I HAVN'T READ A THING.

Okay I probably go now :P

a+(n-1)d=Tn

2011-12-11T20:20:00.001+08:00

EA well you can say I've been at the centre the whole day! From 11-4! Except for that one hour break having lunch. Ea should really get more comfortable seats. Or at least cushions. Cause sitting there for 4 hours isn't helping my sitting posture. I like how he calls the new students :D Reminds me of what I've first been through when I was one.

Just bought a few hairbands. They are real lifesavers -.- I realised they're even better than big crocodile hair clips! Cause they can just pull everything out of your face! Well I have no idea how did I spent my childhood having fringe. Cause it's so bloody sticky and hot. I don't know how people can even stand em now in this kind of weather.

My sister told me how err chio girls clip their hair. I shall explain it as simple as possible. First they take their over-the-eyebrow-length fringe, use a super giant humongous hair clip, tilt their over-the-eyebrow-length fringe, and clip their hair. I mean it's not the kind of clipping that pulls your fringe back haha nooooo it's the kind where MOST OF IT still lingers around your forehead. I mean -.- what's the difference of letting it down except there's a small white hole showing your forehead. Maybe that's the latest style I don't know -.- I just don't get what's the point of buying a huge hair clip and not making full use of it -.-

Come to time of it, anwar told us there was a pretty girl in his class who perasan she's pretty. Halo? Perasan much.. -.- And then anwar says she throws her hair back almost 3 times in a minute, that's what he said. Hahahaha! Everything distracts him. That's why he gets red so fast -.- Especially his ears :D

My memory is so good when it comes to criticising :D

I've gotta go now :D I've been reading fairytale like mad -.- It's all wai kit's fault hmph! -.- My eyes are going blurr when I'm not facing the computer screen. All the reason to get a new glasses. Did you know, every brand is creating spectacle frames. Even CROCS! I'm so gonna get one -.- Even though it's like 600 :P I like sooner or later kipling's gonna have spectacle frames merchandises as well :D
OH YEAH OMG I HAVN'T TOLD YOU GUYS THE JOLLY GOOD NEWS!

MY MAID IS BACK FROM HOLDAY!!!

It feels like home now :D When someone opens the door and gate saying 'hello adik' when I come home from tuition. :D It's awesome yeah hahaha kay.&

Bai bai :D

球

2011-12-10T19:45:00.001+08:00

Once again, happy birthday! :D from me bwahaha! I'm so sorry I couldn't attend your birthday party. And now I should properly explain why!

My primary friends organised a gathering a month ago and I said I'll come. When the date was set to 10 dec, you weren't having your OWN party. ~~initially with dexz~~ So I promised to go to my primary gathering party. Then you guys seperated the party. Well I promised my primary friends first so I can't blow em off. I wanted to drop by and wish you happy birthday PERSONALLY but then it took us an hour to gather everyone around and another two more to eat. So basically there goes my chances of meeting you in pav. Sorry yeah ;)

Haih what can I say wyq, you are helpless without me telling you what time is recess. I'm such a good recess alarm :D You're a wayyyyyyyyyy bigger klutz that I am which gives me comforts most of the time :D BUT! Sitting beside you during exams is WAYYYYYYYYYYY more stressful -.- Like seriously, do you even think before circling the answer TT Your cheeks are so nice to pinch! :D No worries it won't sag! There's always botox right? :D It's not hard to believe you're the girl who sat behind next to me during exam who was writing away madly at questions I don't even understand. Nope, it's you :D You write so hard the whole table shakes even the table next to yours. Your bottle is so erm okay let's just say it's worn out -.-

Thanks for being such a good friend ;) Happy birthday sapoh!

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My primary gathering was awesome. My friends are still as awesome as they were in primary. I had a lot of fun :D And guess what! I realise my friend is a bigger eater than me :P She scares me my god she keeps eating non stop! Is that how I am -.- Eating non stop! Gosh maybe I should stop. Haha nevermind, I'm just crapping, I WON'T EVER! :D

That's all.

ps: you're not the only one who can get mad. other people have feelings too. bear it in mind

2011-12-08T22:25:00.001+08:00

I realised martin kakak make a lot of mistakes. How can a class with 55 people turn out to be a full blasted class of people? -.- Like seriously weh, number problem or what. But haha thankfully I got a place in physics, thanks to em actually cause I just registered today.

Oh yeah, tell you about it. I'm taking physics both sides, cause anwar hasn't really finish teaching LIGHT yet. And even though I've seen LIGHT most of the time in my life, I don't know a thing about it. -.- And form 5 chapter wave. I like the feeling wave rushing through your legs but other than that, I don't know anything else.

Good thing is I managed to get a spot in physics at 6.50. Which is good cause I hate late night classes. And erm, you have to write your names on a paper. I saw a girl, writing like 10 names -.- TAKING 10 BLOODY SPACES! Wow she is sure like zzz geng! Keep writing and writing like halo -.- Can't you see a line behind you? Don't your friends have hands? -.- Can't they at least be there with you other than you writing all their names down. Gimme a break please -.-

Anwar's hell funny. I'm really glad I'm taking his class. :D He makes physics sounds easy.

I got a feeling next year is gonna hell busy. One thing for sure kawad. For the first three months of the year, it usually flies by like a snap. And oh god, my tuition schedule is so tight! I barely have time to take a nap -.- Which is bad cause I really love naps..

I really hate people taking things for granted. -.- Like someone living under the same roof as I am.

Good news! Mom just contacted kakak! :D She's coming back! She says indonesia is boring and she has nothing to do at home! :D She's not used to the food there either! Good! Cause I can't get used to da bao food everyday! And I really think the toilet is dirty -.- I walk on the mat, avoiding the floor zz There's tons of clothes for her to iron! I have no more pants or clothes to wear anymore -.- Hahaha bottom line! Can't wait for her to come back!

Okay I'm off :D To read fairytale :D

ps: it's fairy tail but I like to call it fairytale :D hahaha!

full house

2011-12-06T19:31:00.001+08:00

I finally went to martin to register yesterday. Haha how say erm, 20 minutes before class I went there. Wrote in the details I've written for the past 4 years and now 5 years. I've been in martin for 5 years. Has it really been this long. God, I'm getting old -.-

Unlike ea, martin doesn't limit the number of people who register for class. Which is like hell lot! The whole class is bloody full. I bet there's 100 or more people in there. Thank god for the air conditioning system, if not everyone will die lack of oxygen -.- Like seriously, if someone wanted to pee, you've gotta hold it in cause there's no bloody way out -.- If someone has a tummy ache, wow, I can't even imagine, they'll have to fly to go to the toilet zzz Every inch of the floor is filled with chairs. And my my my, class started half an hour late! And there some students with rotten luck, have to look see from outside cause the room can't simply fit more -.- And it's bloody hot waiting in the stairway for the previous class people to come out. My god. It's packed like seriously. Thank god I went erm early. Hahaha it's considered early since I always go late :P I'm gonna go later next time! -.-

Today is tuesday. I need to constantly remind myself what day is it today. Or else, I'm gonna go blurr and forget when I have tuition. Okay I have ea tomorrow. Biology is okay. Right? It's okay. :D

I feel really bad for abandoning anwar. TT

Okay I'm gonna go read fairy tale. It's kinda like one piece. Only one chapter has more pages hahaha! :D

Hohohohoho

2011-12-04T21:43:00.001+08:00

My blog has enough picture to last for a while now :D I'm lazy to randomly pick a picture that catches me eyes so hahaha and I have tons to write :D

First off, I think I'm getting lazy. Like really, I haven't touch tmc, well that's normal -.- I usually do them few days before school. I mean like tuition. I should take a week off :D Cause EA is like tuition non stop and I really need a break. Martin started already -.- And I haven't even registered. Should I go register tomorrow. I'm still thinking. My bm needs constant tuition to get good grades..

Guess what. I watched 那些年，我们一起追的女孩. Although it took lotsa persuasion to let the ticket lady sell me a ticket. And really I'm still kinda blurr what's happening. Watched it with mom and the others in the cinema was like adult? Old? I don't know -.- They gave me weird looks when I came in. It's a nice movie. The book's better though :D

But after watching breaking dawn part one I'm like totally blown off -.- The wolves are so freaking cool. Geniuses make those wolves look super real and I wonder how much make up they used on making bella look dead. It's damn real -.- Or was it editted. It's damn cool. I don't mind watching it again. OMG THE WOLVES ARE SO YENG AHHH! And reneesme is pretty. Haha mackenzie fey is gonna make a good daughter :D I can't wait for part 2 to come out :D So yenggg! The ending is kinda like avatar. Bella's eyes are so cool! Blood red and blond hair! Part 2 will be even better :D

Having no maid is kinda fun :D You get to do lotsa stuff on your own and learn how to do a lot more. But I've also got to bear someone's temper -.- Which is awful. It's not like I'm not helping out right -.- WHO DOESN'T HAVE A MESSY STUDY ROOM?! Only clean freaks keep everything neat and tidy kay -.- I love working in a messy environment. Packing things away make me forget where I put em! And therefore I'll trash the whole place just to look for it again. So what's the point?

Sis's back from singapore. She bought me lotsa keychains. But I don't really like to use keychains.. But! For her sake :D I'm using most of em. It's not everyday your sister buys you something from overseas. :D

I don't understand why adults are allowed to have a temper and kids aren't. Why can adults have bad mood and get away with it by letting it all out on kids when kids are scolded when they let it out on adults? The world is unfair isn't it? Is that why when all kids grow up, they take it out on their kids as well? It's a PATHETIC cycle zzzz -.-

Kids nowadays are damn high tech. Whenever I go shopping, I can promise you I see almost a couple of kid holding ipads or iphones walking around and they're only in primary -.- or worse, kindergarten. When I was their age, ipad wasn't even borned! Masak masak and play pretend are all in one little ipad.

This reminds me. I went to sushi for dinner last saturday and this snobbish little girl was staring at me and my sister. What is her problem? She's carrying an ipad, that should've been a doll for her age -.- I mean the way she stares at you -.- Puh lease, please respect people okay? Even strangers. Snobbish little girl xP

When I was 12, I don't swear. When I'm 16, I still don't swear ~~unless I'm mad and pissed off badly~~ BUT MY LITTLE SISTER SWEARS LIKE IT'S THE MOST NATURAL THING TO DO. Well she doesn't say it out, but the types it quite often zz. F this F that. Effing this and that. Err hello -.- doesn't any kids now realise that it's bad to swear? -.- Even primary students swear. -.-

The element surprise is really hard to achieve. Especially when someone ruins it before you can even try to achieve it. Don't try to create chances between you and her. It's starting to annoying EVEN MORE now. So grow up and stop ruining stuff -.- SERIOUSLY!

I'm gonna go watch harry potter for the second time this week :D cd of course ;) TATA :D

2011-12-02T21:43:00.001+08:00

Hello indeed. I forgot it's december already. -.- I updated my blog yesterday haha but then I just realised it's december today!

My tummy's full and it's raining softly just came back from pavilion and god damn I'm happy :D I thought I bought a little stuff but then it turned out a lot -.- I didn't even dare to step into the book store zz cause I have tons more to read at home. And I ate a lot today -.- Like seriously haha I feel bad zz I really cut down a lot. I can eat more if I wanna :D Just restock my maggi mee and junkfood so I'm gonna be fine.

Christmas songs are being played everywhere. Really can feel the christmas mood. But then the decorations are not as nice at pavilion this year. What's with a gigantic cake -.- It's not santa's birthday. And the trees are not as tall too. I wonder where they keep the trees after christmas. Must be a big big store.

Sis coming back tomorrow.. I wonder is it raining in singapore. Hahaha imagine playing in the rain in universal studio! Bummer.

I'm sleepy already -.- It's only 9.49!

Ea tomorrow. ~~don't feel like going~~ Hahaha when I tell other people about ea, they're gonna be like O.O I HEARD THE TEACHER'S DAMN FIERCE AND THEY GIVE HOMEWORK AND TEST. YOU PAY FOR THAT? STRESS LA! EXPENSIVE SUMMORE! And then I'm gonna tell em how good it is and then they'll be like O.O REALLY AR? Zzzzz nevermind then!

I forgot to register at martin. TT I'm gonna miss anwar like seriously man -.- He's one hell of a physics teacher. Ugh, I'll register next week la :D Malas :P

KBAI

2011-12-01T22:03:00.001+08:00

The expression on my face now is like the blue thingy :D

The house is so so so so quiet without my sister hahaha. It's hard trying to get used to not having people run up and down the stairs and staring at you while you're using the computer -.- But then still I miss her ;) It's kinda different without her. Like it's too erm quiet. Yes hahaha, but then again, the computer's mine for today and tomorrow :D No one's gonna tell me when to stop. :D Stay safe sissy!

Went over to cousin's house today cause the house is empty and I don't really like to stay home alone for a whole day -.- I might be an otaku and stare at the computer screen or tv most of the time. Baby cousin keeps sticking with me. And cries when I'm not around. That would be cute but after a while, you'd want some freedom. :P

I read harry potter so much -.- I've gone so mad, I went to buy their vcds. :D I watched sorcerer's stone yesterday but chamber of secrets had some problem -.- So taking it back for an exchange damn sad. Gonna try to watch it on pps once the speaker is erm bought. I don't know how to fix a speaker TT

Erm, it's raining -.- Great zzzzzz

Gold coast trip cancelled. Cause flying by air asia, mommy not fond of air asia.
Taiwan trip cancelled. Cause I rather not go to taiwan and go to australia next year.

AHHH! Combine camp and kawad, I'm making a huge sacrifice for ya! To not skip either one of those, I'm not going on holiday during the march holidays TT FUH! Nevermind, I'm sure I'm gonna have tons of fun in school sweating my excess water off!

Holidays.. EA makes holiday seems like school -.- Constantly continuing to worry about mr wong. Like seriously, wow, it's like school! Maybe even worse -.-

I'm a brat :D I fell in love with samsung galaxy S2. Hahahaha I'm a brat I admit :D And I just bought a phone this year -.- HOMG, I should be grateful of what I have. A phone that constantly lags :D Yes I should be grateful!

Trying damn hard to play tetris battle now -.- Everyone's playing it so I tried to. Epic fail -.- It takes me days to figure out a game zzz. NOOB.

I wonder what is my sister doing right now.. Eating junk food I suppose ;)

I found a very ridiculous picture of me when I was young. Taken in my kampung with my cousins when we were young. The way I laugh/smile is damn EPIC! It's like I can't help but laugh at myself also! When I showed my sis the picture, her eyes went to look at herself (in the picture) then darted to me (in the picture) and started to laugh like crazy. I can't blame her seriously cause it's like so damn funny -.- I should scan it into the computer :D

Heeee harry potter ;) Even dad likes it ;)

2011-11-29T20:19:00.001+08:00

Erm, holidays are so amazing ;) It gives me time to think and take my time. No more rushing. I think I this time out before everything goes crazy by the time 2012 comes by. Next year, I bet I'm gonna be hell busy I don't even have time to nap or read.

Erm, I went to watch puss in boots with shen cass and qiu. Yes, I know -.- Go crazy people. The first part was really scary. The meows and stupid meows are driving me crazy. There's no way I'm gonna except cats for who they are.We should have watched breaking dawn! BREAKING DAWN! SHEN AHH!!!! TT

But haha I watched puss in boots and it was acceptable -.- Not that I like cats a lot.

And em, some things just comes too sudden for us to even give a reaction.

Lately there's a lot of new girl groups -.- And boy groups as well. I really don't get why are they so many groups? Some are not even pretty/handsome/yeng! No I bet they've arranged to go for plastic surgery. Their songs are like so one minute hit and the next minute not songs. Nice band names have all been used up. So they come up with some erm, interesting names that I've never heard of. The choreography is almost the same as the senior groups which is copying -.- I get the feeling anyone can be in a idol group now which is like so pointless zzz. The good ones are all being put away TT

Taking my music exams next year during march. Keeping my fingers crossed that it won't clash with any kawad stuff. Fuhh the next time I talk about kawad it's gonna start already. God, time flies!!

I've learnt to not take a speaker for granted! Sucks not having a speaker -.- It's so hard to watch videos where all I can do is see them mime and trying to read their lips zz. And it's even worse when I wanna watch drama. Stuffing earphones into my ears since the speaker is not working and it's bad for my ears I know..

I didn't know klcc has a harrods. I think I can count with my fingers the number of times I've been to klcc, which you can tell is not much -.- I think leisure mall and jusco and pavilion is more homey to me. The rest haha not quite..

Oh yeah, class party at klcc. Almost forgot. Erm, I just put on the first shirt I see cause there's no kakak to arrange my closet so yeah it looks like I'm going for tuition instead of some party. Less than 10 people showed up. Smallest class party ever I think. It was kinda awkward. And quiet -.- Most people were having breakfast and reading the paper. I have my reasons to go for that class party :P

Had a serious case of claustrophobia in the underground train. To a point that I wanted to throw up -.- Was still sick after going into klcc. Seriously I'm not going back to the underground train again. Just thinking about it is already freaking me out -.-

Why am I the one with weird phobias. TT

2011-11-25T19:53:00.001+08:00

I just found out the name for that thing :D And I thought I'm the abnormal one who see that but I guess I'm pretty normal now :D

Week One of holiday. It's so fast isn't it. The next time you'll know we'll be starting school term all over again. Life's a roller coaster..

Half way through harry potter series. Yeah it's so nice, I'm always stuck sitting in my usual spot in the living room reading and reading. There's a difference between sitting down doing nothing and sitting down reading. I don't care if I'm unhealthy it's just harry potter is really very nice. I only stop reading when I have to. I stayed up all night reading prisoner of azkaban because I wanted to know the truth and the next time I see the clock, it's almost 1.

Dissapointed yet again but then it's my fault in the first place to have hopes. Yes that's one thing I've learnt. Not to let your hopes up too high, cause it'll fall down harder.

People are so good at acting sometimes, I wonder when did they even have the time to go to art school when they didn't. Surely, it's purely talent. Yes. TALENT. Fascinating how some people manage to be two different people looking at the scenarios.

My speaker somehow crashed. I don't know why -.- So now it's impossible to watch drama or videos. Sadly. I have no idea how it crashed -.- My sis just announced that it crashed suddenly when I was reading. Haha but then again the speaker is around a decade old or going there. Cause I've seen it in my house ever since I can remember..

Anyways, I really wanna get a letter from hogwarts :D And get those brooms :D And wands :D

Kay, I really have no mood to be cheerful now :D See ya!

what's coming will come and we'll meet it when it does

-hagrid-

2011-11-22T15:29:00.001+08:00

Isn't it ;) Harry Ron and Hermione are an awesome trio. Bella Edward and Jacob are no match for them ;)

A lot of people wonder if I was ever a Harry Potter fan. Ask me two days ago my answer will be no. Mind you, my mom told me harry potter was a scary movie ever since I started going to the cinema. And now here I am catching up with all the fun and excitement several years later. Haha, yeah I've started to read harry potter two days ago and I finished two books. Great accomplishment I might add.

Ask me now again, my answer will be different ;)

The most amazing thing about harry potter is that they can fly, I want a broomstick too please, god knows how badly I wanna fly. But the main point is, harry potter and I share the same birthday :D I seriously feel so proud to share the same birthday with a famous wizard ;) Heh, I can't wait to finish the whole series, maybe then I'm gonna go find the movie and finish it in one day or something xD

Just before I started reading harry potter, I finished watching heartstrings. I really really like the songs in the drama like seriously. Finished the drama in 3 days. The songs are still stuck in my head :D There's a guy who eat a lot which kinda reminds me of myself. Not a good example I might add. But still, I think I'm taking a break from the dramas now since I'm attached to harry potter.

I love the way J.K. Rowling writes. It's amazing ;)

Speaking of which, I'm starting to do some house chores now. It feels fresh learning how to do everything from a scratch. First time cutting apples, mopping the floor and so on. Haha, really adds on lotsa experience for me :D As I told wyq just now my fingers are sore from doing all the housework, she was rather blown off.

wyq: since when do you do housework?
me: SINCE MY MAID LEFT FOR HOLIDAYS!

Yeah so haha I'm having quite a good time now -.- Learning things most people can do. I bet I can cook like a pro next year. ~~okay maybe not -.-~~

I've not been online since I started watching Heartstrings and reading Harry Potter. Today's like the first time I scrolled through facebook slowly, taking my time. And err, mind you I'm quite slow when it comes to sport affairs, malaysia won something? Football? Okay nevermind, I only support fifa ;D

I saw a chopper puzzle. 1000 pieces. I'm gonna buy it and get it fixed by the time school starts :D IT'S HORRIBLY CUTE :D

Whatever I'm doing my mind flies back to Hogwarts. It really has an effect on people.

Yeah I'm gonna go back to Hogwarts now. ;)

2011-11-19T11:20:00.001+08:00

It makes me wonder sometimes, how things happen so fast you can't grasp it within your hands. How time flies without you even knowing. How the months gone by without me even flipping the calendar. They say time flies when you're having a good time. I'll never forget this year. Not ever.

I'll miss walking to class in the dark.
I'll miss walking to my seat and to my familiar desk.
I'll miss turning behind to talk to cass about random stuff.
I'll miss seeing qiu sleep beside me.
I'll miss hearing katta pandi and sue een's hysterical laughter.
I'll miss lisha's puff.
I'll miss emeel's lame joke.
I'll miss all the drama in class.
I'll miss the times we prepared for drama.
I'll miss the times we kawad under the sun.
I'll miss the trees I see on the way to class.
I'll miss the sound of sand under my shoes when I cross the sandy part.
I'll miss complaining that it's bloody hot.
I'll miss ignoring teachers and do my own stuff.
I'll miss seeing everyone sleep in class when teacher's not around.
I'll miss seeing teachers walk into class and we'll all have the -.- facial expression.
I'll miss running from class to class just for fun.
I'll miss seeing people playing basketball in the basketball court.
I'll miss staying back and having nothing to do.
I'll miss staying back with cass and talk crap instead of study.
I'll miss stepping into the big big puddle formed when it's raining.
I'll miss regina's loud voice and the way she calls me when she's excited.
I'll miss all the chaos caused in class.
I'll miss when 4J people come over complaining the stench of cat poo in their class.
I'll miss kawad. Hell lot.
I'll miss camp. Hell lot.
I'll miss the form 5s'. Hell lot.

Thanks eunis for leading an awesome group ;) babylon.
Thanks xinhui for always being so helpful ;)
Thanks shawn for everything :)
Thanks hein yong for always making me laugh when I'm not high :)
Thanks wai kit for always being so funny and staying back for nothing :D
Thanks shan zhi and jeng yee for all the funny moments in bilik sakit :)
Thanks tammie and tau teng. Sakais.
Thanks men chau, ah gong ;)
Thanks wei sheng, brandon and kien ming for being an awesome group member ;)
Thanks edmund for being a great chess president!
Thanks pbsm ajks for giving me an awesome year of memories ;)
Thanks pbc ajks for all the happy moments I'll never forget in my life. ;)
Thanks everyone! :D

The sky seemed bluer, the school is quieter, everyone rushing to take pictures with each other before school's over. Taking down the decorations in class, sweeping the floors and rearranging our tables, everything's gone, but the memories remain. Walking out from class the last time, taking in everything, the trees, the sand path I take everytime, the puddle I like to step on, the grass that grows on certain side, all the memories. Thank you.

yesterday was my last day of school

2011-11-17T18:48:00.001+08:00

Totoro'll always be there for us :)

Time flies right?

Tomorrow's the last day of school.

And I'm not ready for school to end yet.

:) You can only learn how to appreciate things when it's no longer there.

2011-11-16T21:16:00.001+08:00

Don't get me wrong -.- It's not that I dislike school, it's just that, NO ONE EVEN BOTHER SHOWING THEIR FACES IN SCHOOL ANYMORE. Now that exams are over and everyone's like slacking of sleeping in on their bed when I have to like get up so early in my bed and go to school. I almost wanted to give up and said okay I'm not going to school today, I'm gonna stay at home. But I ended up going to school as well. -.-

There's so little people showing up in school that hahaha I can count how many people is in class with 10 fingers. And trust me, there's more. Now's the time when people come to school without their bags and with their laptops and cell phones and entertainment rather than well homework? I mean who does homework now since exams are over and holidays' practically like around the corner -.- ~~well some people I suppose~~

Exam marks are coming in and seriously I'm quite satisfied with my marks ;) Exclude some heh. But seriously everybody thinks exam marks are important as shite well I'll tell you what's more important! Oxygen -.- After hearing stories from the story teller I really start to think that people would kill to score A+ or just to get 100%. Really, I think some people will do that. Can't you just accept what you have -.-

It's very rare for me to type in chinese I know hahaha to the point that xuelame actually asked me did I really blog in chinese or did I change my web url or did she went to the wrong blog. Hahahaha! Is it that rare?! Okay it is but I gotta admit my chinese is so good :D I'm so proud of my primary standard chinese :D I felt embarassed reading my chinese essay in front of the whole class cause it's oh-so-childish. Kay I said it -.-

I finished reading 那些年，我们一起追过的女孩 in one day. And I read it! Not just flip the pages okay -.- Like seriously I read it! -.- STOP DOUBTING ME! TT It's nice really, the way Gidden(author's chinese name) narrates the story from his own point of view. It's so sweet. Yet oh so dumb! It kinda reminds me of someone's love story haha. I liked the way he called 沈佳义 his 青春. That's so sweet like seriously. He liked her for 8 years. Imagine that. And all those time she had been liking him back!

It's so sweet how he didn't wanna kiss the girl during her wedding cause of his innocent thinking: he wants the girl to remember him as the guy who stood out, the guy who liked her for 8 years, the guy who didn't kiss her during her wedding when all his buddies who liked her did. That's really something bold :)

I have to go to school tomorrow no matter what so I better quit complaining and start making space for more books and korean dramas and manga :D I'm oh so free now :D

Sis's UPSR result coming in tomorrow. I'm feeling nothing actually. Just kinda nervous for her. I'm praying for ya sissy! :D

2011-11-15T20:57:00.001+08:00

It's true isn't it, that there's more to exam marks in this brilliant world. I'm gonna do something really unexpected now.

人生里，第一次不及格，
应该是小学二年级时。
平时拿到考卷时，
很紧张要给爸爸妈妈看，
要和朋友比分，
但那张卷子是我唯一自己收着
除了我以外，谁也没看过.
到今天，爸爸妈妈也不懂。

人生里，第二次不及格，
是今天。
我对自己很失望，
老师对我很失望，
爸爸妈妈也应该会更失望吧。
我真的不明白，
我尝试去明白，
尽了我的力，但还是这样那样。
是补习老师的错吗？
我早已告诉了爸爸妈妈老师很好，
但其他学生很吵。
那是我的错吗？

人生里，
不能再有第三次不及格。
华人数学不是很好的吗？
难道我不是华人吗？

考试分数，
每个人都在比，
那曾经是我，
但我现在知道世上有好多东西比考试分重要。
我是不是很不知足呢？
非洲难民想上课却不能，
我能接受如此好的教育，
却一直埋怨。

我要知足，
再能长乐。

应该会有很多人想为什么用华文写。
慢慢去想吧。

Unexpected huh! :) Just felt like writing in chinese. Phew.

School holiday's coming :D

Handle with Care is a really nice book. I think people who fuss over their nails should read that book. To learn that there's more to life than nail polish and manicures.

My sister's keeper is also nice. Jodi Picoult is a really good author.

Okay I'm coughing till the back of my head hurts.

2011-11-14T22:05:00.001+08:00

Please click on the picture to get a wayyy larger view. Sky island is like where I wanna live right now -.- Look at everything, the name's sky island and I can bet it feels almost like flying up there. Okay my obsession with flying is starting again hahaha but who cares omg it's so cool staying on a sky island! I so wanna get a ship and go up there :D

In many ways one piece thought me lotsa things :D It's a very very very nice manga :D I think everyone should read it whee! Cause it's cute and funny and yeng at the same time! xD How often can you get that in a manga?! Okay every manga is cute yeng and funny -.- So hahahaha nevermind this is extra awesome cause it has like 600++ chapters :D

WYQ AND CASS IS COMING BACK FROM BEIJING TODAY! Well tonight. Maybe they're standing on her tanah air already! Well who knows I just wanna say welcome home! :D Bwahahahahaha I can't wait to pinch wyq's face. Long time no pinch! :D

Got rm100 from school today! :D I don't have anything to buy -.- Money comes to me at the wrong time zzz and never at the right moment when I need something terribly. Hahahaha oh well :D
Okay I'm going back to sky island now ;D Awesome mangas have awesome supporters :D Like ME!

2011-11-13T20:22:00.001+08:00

Just found this adorable. How snoopy grew up for like 60 years ;)

Practically, I was bored to death cause the stupid phone line was cut and then there's no internet connection. But thank god, mom called to complain like hell and then the phone line came back today. And I get used to computer!! TT

This whole morning, without computer and internet, I managed to pack up my room and the living room and mind you it took me 4 hours -.- Imagine the mess. I hate packing -.- But when I'm in the mood, it's fun :D And on the way of packing, I always find stuff that I've lost for days weeks months years. Who knows. Hahaha, I'll be like O.O I've been looking for this everywhere. Mom says the tidiness doesn't last long and I sure agree with her.

And now that the internet's back, I've been figuring out how to download korean dramas. There's tons of korean dramas I wanna watch but since wyq isn't here, there's no one to tell me where to download or tell me she's downloading it. -.- So yeah I'm cracking my brains now.

Not travelling during the holidays cause I've got hurt so many times this year. SprainS, burnS, fall downS, cutS, sickS. Hahaha kay enough -.- No need to walk down memory lane.. As I was saying, I really wanna go back to korea. I miss the banana milk and the ramen noodles there..

Wheeeeeeeeee I'm so bored..

MANGAAAAA (Y)

2011-11-11T23:15:00.001+08:00

Really, all I need now is a wish that I can turn back time and I wasn't sick at all.

Months of preparation are put into this competition, memorising all the bone names and pulse place and balutan and stuf, everything. But now, the saddest thing is I only get to imagine what's happening at wms, what the others are doing. The pc team consists of four, tomorrow, there's only two.

Seriously, I blame myself for all this, cause none of this would've happened if I wasn't sick. I didn't wanna disapoint anyone or let anyone down, especially him. He who trained us for months without hoping for a reward. The last thing I wanted to do was to get sick at this time of the year.

I really wanna go to the competition! WTF!

People let words escape their mouths so easily sometimes it's too late to regret what they've said.
Words said cannot be taken back.
If they were meant to be taken back,
why say them at all?

You make things sound extremely easy and not challenging at all.
Why don't you try it.
Yes, why don't you.
You gave a lousy reason I forever won't accept.
The reason you gave me didn't make me respect you.
~~sorry~~

But I'm still looking at the bright side. The bright side is if wm and jy go, then we'll have a better chance of winning next year together! :D If wm and jy go, then they'll see and experience what first aid competition is really like! :D If wm and jy go, then they might win and coach won't be so dissapointed in us! :D

There's always a possibilty.

I'm praying for you guys like every darn second you guys are in the pc competition. Know what, I'm just gonna keep texting you guys throughout the competition -.-

The things I've learnt, I'm just gonna spill it all out :D
- the middle finger can actually be fractured and ice cream sticks can be used as splints for em.
- real splints look extremely pro and expensive, make shift splint are funny and not stable.
- the shoulder bone is clavicle and the hindarm is called the humerous
- the top part of the skull is called a cranium
- brain juice will be secreted from the ear mouth or nose if the head has an impact
- never touch a spinal injured person
- never even elevate legs during shock
- sample and rapid body survey and vital signs are damn important
- always introduce yourself to your casualty
- follow the leader
- wash hands following the 7 steps
- wear and remove gloves in a funny way
- use bleach to watch bed sheet at more than 100 degree celcius to kill spores formed by microorganisms
- sponge casualty's head if they have fever
- dispose of rubbish like tissues into rubbish bag and seal it
- wash thermometer used by casualty with antiseptic
- the back bone has several segments seperated into numbers 7-12-5-5-4
- national hiv day is 27th june
- amputation means a broken segment of a body
- a person has shock when they're pulse is more than 90
- a normal person's breathing is 12-16 per minute

There's still so much to tell. But I'm getting tired. So I'm gonna go sleep now.

Good luck and all the best jian yik and wei ming :)

2011-11-10T19:19:00.002+08:00

Wondered where I've been lately? I'm always missing. Yeah heh, nothing much to say. Just had some really tough days lately.

Yesterday, I've learnt to not again judge someone based on something easily. There's always an inside story that's waiting to be uncovered. No one should ever experience what she has. She has done nothing wrong. And yet, the blame is all on her. Why? It's not her fault. I kinda blame those who thinks it's her fault. I kinda blame myself for blaming her once. Sometimes people do hateful things to you when the only thing you're trying to do is being helpful. That pain is the worse pain one has to endure.

I really am sorry. Deeply and truly.

Came back home with a horrible sore throat yesterday till it hurts when I speak. So basically, I was sleeping the whole day and yesterday. The sore throat was the worse one I had to endure like seriously, even talking hurts. Nosebleed for 6 times yesterday include 3 times in school and had flu the rest of the night. Took medication and went to bed. Woke up at 12 in the morning hoping it's somewhere near dawn. I thought I wouldn't go back to sleep but I ended up sleeping till 10 in the morning.

I suffered tremendously throughout the night. My throat was being a pain in the neck and even blowing my nose hurts it. Yes it wasn't a pleasant night. I have fever easily and this one was 40 degrees. One of my highest temperatures, yes.

I'm surely not allowed to attend the competition. I hate being a dissapointment and letting people down. I've learned hell lot from this competition, things I thought doesn't matter suddenly mattered a lot. It's this saturday and I don't think I can make it. I don't want anyone to be disapointed. Especially not those who worked hard for this.

I finished a whole tissue box today. Just to blow my nose. And nose is getting red and it feels like it's coming off. The upper part of my lips is dry due to the constant rubbing of my nose. Conclusion: I look horrible.

I really wanna get well soon :D

Today's the form 5's last day of school. I'm gonna miss everyone hell lot. It'll take some time getting used to this like how I'm gonna miss the previous f5 batch. There's a difference between seniors and friends to me. And those seniors who are my friends, close friends, are the ones I'm gonna miss the most.

All the best and good luck for spm. :) Make bonda proud ;)

I'm gonna eat my porridge now. And then go back to being a pig again. Heh buh bye :D

2011-11-07T20:22:00.001+08:00

Just found this randomly. I'm looking for people who has harry potter dvd and are happy to lend em to me cause I like the idea of wizards can fly. I actually watched the first movie of harry potter in my cousin's bachelor party so hehe, this is for all the harry potter fans out there ;)

3 days of holidays, 3 days of fun and shopping -.- I can tell that we've spent a lot during the weekends plus a happy monday and boom, tomorrow's tuesday! And briefing.. I'm always late for it. I really am trying my very best to leave the house as early as possible to make it to briefing. But I guess I can't help it when my house is like bloody half an hour from school if you count traffic. -.- Just my luck huh.

I realise my house is full of reference book I used for exams. And err, I'm gonna go pack em up now :D

2011-11-06T20:30:00.005+08:00

Yesterday mom asked me if I remember any of my childhood. Haha, yes I have :) I decided to tell you all the crappy things I did when I was smaller than I am now.

My hair used to be straight and my dad always ties a coconut for me on my head.
I used to wear my mommie's heels and walk around my gramma's house just to feel taller. I fell down too.
I used to scream loudly to a fan and love the sound it makes.
I used to run around in the house screaming like there's alien invasion.
I used to play masak masak a lot and I used water as food -.-
I used to memorise all the signs and traffic lights I see on the road.
I used to draw all the signs on the road on papers which I then stick em on brooms and dust pan and cycle around my front yard just like I'm driving.
I used to think that my shoes are shrinking and I dare not wear em.
I used to think skirts are evil cause I have to behave when I wear em.
I used to obsess with the way I arrange my toys.
I used to play pretend with my sis and asked my maid to clean up after us.
I used to scrub the floor like my maid cause I'm the pretend maid.
I used to watch disney movies a lot.
I used to wake my daddy up early in the morning just so he can on the tv for me to watch the movies.
I used to be so excited for children's day and sports day I can't sleep.
I used to carry a small sesame street bag and a mickey mouse sunglasses wherever I go.
I used to play my daddy's phone whenever he comes home, the only game there was were snake and rocket ship.
I used to carry my mom's oversized handbags.
I used to admire colour pencils I sharpen them neatly and place them back nicely.
I used to jump from high staircases cause I like the feeling in the air.
I used to think cloud was edible -.-
I used to not cover my blanket cause I know dad will do it for me.
I used to on my night light but now I find it blinding in the dark.
I used to draw family portraits during my mom and dad's birthday as a present.
I used to draw a lot with crayons and get my hand dirty.
I used to colour my nails with highlight trying to scare my sister.
I used to frighten my maid in the kitchen and I find it fun.
I used to have a minnie mouse doll which then is passed to my sis.
I used to think my pet golden is made of gold -.-
I used to ask my dad to bring me to haircuts when my hair is already short.
I used to have water fights with my cousin in the evening.
I used to play a dinosaur game on computer and I got addicted to it.
I used to be scared of going upstairs by myself.
I used to eat gardenia chocolate bread in a very funny way.. I squeeze out all the chocolate filling and give the remaining bread to my dad.
I used to make guns out of lego and then play battlefield with my sis in my parent's room using the bed and the frontier.
I used to cut barbie's hair cause I didn't like their long hair -.-
I used to think barbie's hair will grow back -.-
I used to push my sis's bike up the hill until a horrible incident.
I remember when my sis was about to get delivered and everyone rushed to the hospital leaving me and my maid behind.
I remember when my sis was having a high fever and everyone went to the clinic except me of course.
I remember when my sis bit me.
I remember when my mom first scolded our maid.
I remember when I accidentally ate colour pencil lead and my dad freaked out.

There's still lotsa actually. :D but I'm gonna save it for the next time I remember it. But there's still lotsa things I still do now when I was a kid, like jumping around and playing with my sister. Heh, this is fun :D

Growing up is very funny. You wouldn't realise how much you've grown until you're reminded of the past. Now, when I see my sister, I see a younger me. The rebellious me actually, except she's much more than I were. And mom said she got that from me -.- She's pretty awesome when she's nice and super not when's she in a bad mood, especially when she doesn't get the things she wants.

Many people ask whether am I taller or is my sister. And all the time my mind is wtf is wrong about being shorter than your younger sister. It's not against the law. But I smile and answer, no I'm taller. And most people won't believe but I don't give a damn. :D Think whatever you want.

Did quite some shopping lately. I finally found a pencil case to my liking and well somehow I ended up not buying it. Nevermind. :)

Gonna get a new pair of crocs tomorrow! TOMORROW! TOMORROW! I'm so excited!! :D Cause they finally decided to make something similar to my previous mary jane, except it's called carlie mary jane! :D I'm wearing a crocband flat. I really really love crocs.

Currently reading: Handle with Care by Jodi Picault :)

Kay I'm gonna go shower :D Had an awesome lunch just now with mom and sis. Green tea mochi TT

2011-11-04T18:18:00.002+08:00

Phew I'm back people :)

My examination procedure:

Cover book and squeeze everything inside my head.
Reluctantly take my bag and put it behind the class.
Wishing everyone good luck before the exam start.
Sit down and pray silently in my heart.
Drink a sip of water.
Wish kata pandi beside me good luck.
Eyes wyq.
Receive paper.
PRAY PRAY PRAY!
Takes up chosen pen.
PRAY PRAY PRAY!
Writes name and class and date for 91238402195815714309584039158 times.
Flip to page 1.
-.- WTH what is this?
Scanning the paper.
Happy that I found some I knew how to do.
Cracks head solving those I don't.
Eyes wyq.
OMG SHES HALFWAY DONE! -.-
Eyes kata pandi.
Phew, still at page one.
Continue doing.
Looks at fan tree table dust chair people air whiteboard for invisible answers that I can spot.
Imagining situations for accurate answer.
Cracking my head again.
Digging deep for the answers burried somewhere.
OH SHITE I READ THIS! WHAT WAS IT AGAIN! OMG HOW CAN I NOT READ SOMETHING SO IMPORTANT.
Eyes wyq.
OMG SHES SLEEPING -.-
Feels depressed.
Do not eye her anymore.
Shoot for the best answer.
Doodle doodle doodle.
Play with my tie.
Drink milk.
Drift to a light sleep.
YOU STILL HAVE 5 MORE MINUTES.
Thank god.
Hand in paper.
Stands up.
EXAM'S OVER!!!!

Heh. What happens everyday during exams ;) I'm so glad exams over, I have so many things I wanna do now -.-

Read:
- A bend in the road
- Torment
- The golden compass
- Harry Potter :D (yes I finally decided to read cause wizards can fly)
- One piece
- Gakuen Alice
- Reread Maid Sama
- Reread La Corda

Watch:
- Sector 7
- Poseidon
- CARTOON!

Stuff to do:
- Learn how to microwave. (maid going home to visit during hols)
- Sleep more!
- Eat more!

Heh! I've got my holidays planned out! :D

Just came back from badminton. Super tired since it has been a long time since I last played badminton. I'm trying hard not to fall asleep cause I have tuittion later and I don't wanna be late... Wheeeeeeeeee, but I'm just take a short nap. :P

i love eating and sleeping

2011-10-27T20:35:00.001+08:00

I'm so gonna screw my exams. Like serious shite. I'll be thankful if I can mantain my previous ranking. Like serious shite.

Woe, I just realised I typed serious shite twice like hahahaha wtf :D

I told myself I'm gonna study today and I spent the whole day walking up and down the house, reading random books I pick up from my book shelf and walking around and looking at the dumb clock that does nothing good except tell me how much time I'm wasting and not studying. And then it rained, and you know how I am when it rains: I need to sleep/get protection under my blanket. So there you have it, about two hours wasted.

Currently, helping mom upload her reunion lunch pictures. So I'm like using this precious time to online TT And not blame myself for slacking again. AHH!!

I realise what's wrong with my studying style. I only like to study subjects I like. Means those that I don't like, no way I'm gonna study them unless exam's like bloody tomorrow. So I know myself damn clear but tomorrow I'm gonna sit down and go understand maths cause it's like a total blurr for me TT Please please please!!! Don't be tempted to do anything else!

I really really shouldn't have downloaded mangas into my phone. Now whenever I'm studying, my phone seems to glow a bright glow telling me: YOU KNOW YOU WANNA READ MANGA JUST READ IT. IT WON'T TAKE A LONG TIME. And the next time I know, half an hour gone.

Compare to doing revision. Study study study. Wow, I think a long time has passed by. Look at clock, only 10 minutes ticked by. You get the feeling -.- Time passes so slow when you're doing something you don't like..

I really miss the times after pmr where it feels like you can do anything you want. And I miss taking PMR. I don't mind retaking PMR actually. If I can skip my upper form exams, I'd gladly take PMR again and again. But that's the thing with life, things get harder and harder until a point that things slow down and gets easy.

I like the smell of crayons :D maybe cause I grew up with em :)

Okay, I really really really hate myself for not studying. So lemme just sit down and study just for a little bit. At least at night when I go to sleep and recap what I did today, STUDY will immediately pop in.

TT WISH ME LUCK

2011-10-23T21:20:00.003+08:00

Hehehe yes that's so true :D Okay, I haven't blogged in a long long long time. So I'm just gonna write everything that pops up into my mind.

My right wrist hurts I don't know why, don't ask me, I wish I knew why too. It's like so annoying -.- And my ankle is better. Except it can't lay straight on the ground when I stretch my leg, it's always floating in the air, one major problem. It's still slightly bumpier than my other ankle but time's the medicine I guess. I still can't run like I used to cause I really don't wanna get lectured for being so clumsy again. I can't jump -.- I don't know why.

My fingers have super glue on em! :D I was trying to glue back my plastic ruler since the directions said it can stick on plastic materials, I gave it a shot and the glue somehow was on my finger -.- Okay I accidentally touched it :3 That's not the worse part, I thought my ruler was fine and I started bending it like I always do and crack. WTH.

The super glue finger feels weird..

Cousin's wedding :D In between the two most craziest day in my life, I actually have EA tuition. And I actually went to both of em! :D Heeee :3

Being with my cousins feel awesome :D I have this super duper cute nephew! :D He loves to hold my finger when he walks around and hahaha he mistakes my sister as me sometimes. He always asks where I am when I'm not around. How cute is he. He was wearing a tuxedo that day TT SO YENG Really, meltingggggg.

Had high tea in time square hotel today haha. Yes I don't always go to time square, I'm there for a high tea. High tea - buffet lunch. It's just a nicer way of saying buffet lunch since it sounds horrible. Hahaha, well I can't say I didn't have fun there, using their super fast wifi :D And I ate alot -.- Heee :3 They actually believe I'm a 12 kid whose birthday is in december. Hah, people always fall for that :P

Okay, so my fingers feel kinda weird -.- Like really really weird. Like a plastic is coating it or somethinggg..

Well, moving on about exams. I have absolutely no comment on that hehehehe :3

Have one week of holiday off. Like thank god, gimme some time to study! And next week, Hades is looking for me ;) Wish me luck :D

3 more days for the seniors to be in school. I'm really shock when I first hear that. Hahaha, I thought there were still few more days or maybe weeks. But no, only 3 more days. I've gotten quite close to some seniors over these few years. My first impression of them were quite haha unpredictable but turns out I can tell em anything I feel like and they'll just listen. Being friends with seniors is really fun. Cause one thing you get comfort that you're younger! :D Hahaha kidding.

I'm gonna miss this batch of form 5. :) Like really. Thank you for everything :)

Heee :3 I'm gonna go study now :) Well at least try to :D

2011-10-17T16:32:00.000+08:00

DEAR ~~MOTORCYCLIST~~ ASSHOLE:

YOU SAID WE HIT YOUR MOTORCYCLE. I DON'T SEE WHERE AND HOW. THERE'S NO DENTS NO SCRATCH NO NOTHING! YOU HAVE NO BLOODY EYES SO USE THEM LA SUCKER! WTF DON'T COME BLAME ME AND MY DAD FOR SOMETHING WE DIDN'T DO. CHINESE DON'T KNOW HOW TO DRIVE YOU SAY? ASSHOLE. GO STUDY MORAL LA LOSER, THEY TEACH YOU NILAI MURNI. STUPID ASSHOLE.

STOP SWEARING IN INDIAN LA COME ON! I KNOW HOW YOU'RE SWEARING LIKE EVERY FREAKING MINUTE. WTF IS WRONG WITH YOUR MOTORCYCLE? NOTHING! YOU WANNA BRING IT TO THE POLICE STATION? COME ON LA I'M NOT SCARED OF YOU AND YOUR GOOD FOR NOTHING BRAIN. IT'S NOT LIKE YOUR MOTORCYCLE CRASHED OR YOU BROKE YOUR LEG OR ANYTHING SUCKER!

I DON'T SEE ANYTHING WRONG WITH YOUR FUCKING MOTORCYCLE. AND FYI, MY DAD LEARNS UNDANG AND HE'S NOT SCARED OF YOU OKAY! IF I WERE BIGGER AND TALLER, OKAY, IF I WERE A GUY, I'LL DEFINITELY DEFEND MY DADDY. YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW PISSED I WAS. I'D JUST SCREAM AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS AT YOU LOSER! I DON'T JUST STORM OUT OF THE CAR AND SLAM THE DOOR AND SHOUT AT SOME STRANGER YA KNOW?! THAT'S HOW PISSED YOU MAKE ME.

DON'T YOU THINK YOUR VOICE IS LIKE SO FUCKING LOUD, THE WHOLE NEIGHBOURHOOD CAN HEAR YOU OKAY? I'M NOT SCARED OF YOU. GIVEN A CHOICE? I'LL SCREAM AT YOU ASKING YOU WHERE THE FUCK IS YOUR BLOODY WOUND. I DON'T SEE ONE LIKE SERIOUSLY WTF IS WRONG WITH YOUR EYES. SERIOUSLY GO GET A CHECKUP LA DUDE.

I'M SO PISSED OFF RIGHT NOW. LIKE SERIOUSLY. WTF. YOU ASKED FOR WHAT BLOODY RM100? GO TO HELL. FIXING NOTHING COSTS RM100? USE YOUR BRAIN LA YOU LOSER! WITH THAT NOTHING TO FIX, MY DAD SHOULDN'T EVEN PAY YOU A CENT! ASSHOLE.

CAN YOU DO YOUR BLOODY MATH PROPERLY? HOW CAN 3 PIECES OF RM10 BE ONLY FUCKING RM20? WTF I FEEL LIKE SLAMMING THE DOOR IN YOUR FACE. YOU KEEP GOING ON SEE HOW I SMASH YOUR CAR WINDOW SHIELD LATER. OMFG LET'S TAKE IT TO THE POLICE! YOU CAUSED SOME REAL LIKE SERIOUSLY REAL DAMAGE COMPARE TO YOUR IMAGINARY DAMAGES. PUH LEASE LA, ASSHOLE, BE CIVILISED KAY.

I'LL NEVER FORGET YOUR STUPID FACE. I SWEAR IF I EVER SEE MOTORCYCLISTS LIKE THAT AGAIN, I'M NOT GONNA JUST STAY IN THE CAR AND WATCH MY DAD OR MOM GET SCOLDED.

TO ALL DRIVERS OUT THERE, PLEASE DON'T THINK YOU'RE HELL OF A GREAT AND START BUMPING INTO PEOPLE'S VEHICLE FOR POCKET MONEY. GET A LIFE ASSHOLE.

~~LOVE~~ HATE YOU A LOT FOR TEACHING ME THIS LESSON.

2011-10-16T19:56:00.006+08:00

I've been on some tough tides lately. Hahaha, it's been a busy busy week. And gosh I have so much to write, I haven't blogged in days cause I simply have no time to sit my ass down and write everything I wanna write. But now, I make space from my revision time to blog. I'm such a good blog keeper :D

Wednesday. PREFECT JAMUAN
The day when all of hell broke lose. Busy busy busy busy. Prefect jamuan, I wasn't really busy doing anything just help prepare for the jamuan, helped fold flowers the day before. The funny thing was I had to actually dress up as a hawaian girl! -.- No, not that kind like coconuts and grass skirts NO WAY -.- It's more of shirt and pants. Thank god. But still, it was funny -.-

There were flowers everywhere in the hall and haha it was pretty :) Orchids. My dad will scream if they see orchids go to waste like that -.- His favourite flower species to explore and learn about. My dad's interests are so weird zzz.

Like me. :P

I didn't go home on wednesday. Went straight to casserene's house to prepare for hari keusahawanan which is like thursday.

There were problems with the seaweed teacher bought, THERE WERE BLOODY HOLES IN EM -.- The rice was like falling all over zzz. So casserene's mom bought some better quality ones back and we actually started making them seriously at like what 8 o clock?

We started preparing bubble tea and gosh the process wasn't pretty. Somewhere along the whole thing..

Thursday. HARI KEUSAHAWANAN
Didn't sleep during the whole night, had a short nap of like 10 20 30 minutes. Cass's dogs are super cute! Heeee :3 Especially the big one. Looks so yeng. Naruto's so hyper -.- I don't know why he kinda scared me once brandon let him out of the cage.

Okay hari keusahawanan happened so fast. SO FAST I was like ugh okay, it's over thank god. zz. Went to the ghost house and it was more of funny than scary but I can really see the efforts the form 6 put into. :) I was supposed to go in with kanyujin but YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED TO ENTER WITH A DIFFERENT GENDER. So, I ended up going in with regina, vivien and kah yee. Don't feel like commenting on that :P

Other than that, I was preparing hot dogs and shaked 3 bubble teas. Yeah I was so slow wyq wouldn't stand watching me shake the tea -.-

Once I went home, the whole night/day ended like this: SHOWER SLEEP WAKE UP EAT TUITION SLEEP

Hahaha! I was so tired, I was swallowing my rice instead of chewing em. :3

Friday. MR TAN RETIREMENT CEREMONY
It was a grand yet sad ceremony. Mr Muru actually cried and went back stage. Imagine having your friend leaving you behind. :( I'm gonna miss Mr Tan a lot.

　感恩的心奉献 :) I love these two songs. Hahaha, along the performance, the microphone was so sensitive, our conversation was actually projected out to the hall. Thank god not everyone heard em -.- SHO EMBARASSING!

Thank you Mr Tan for everything. :) One day was not enough to show you our gratitude. All the best and wish you happiness. ;)

Saturday. GRADUATION CEREMONY
I'm gonna miss this batch of form 5 like seriously :) School's gonna end in a month and I really want this year to rewind. I'm not ready to be a form 5 yet. Okay, I'm not ready to take SPM -.- I will really really really miss em, my seniors and friends and close friends. :)

Gotta start studying and focus on exams now.. PHEW! GUNS READY. PREPARE TO SHOOT!

absence makes the heart grows fonder :)

2011-10-10T17:39:00.001+08:00

This is chopper. He's a reindeer borned with a blue nose. He ate a human devil fruit that gives him the ability to speak and change his size into a human. His red hat was given by his master, who died helping the country. He loves medicine and his once broken heart is getting cured by Luffy and his friends. He decided to join Luffy on his adventure in search of One Piece to see the world (sea). And Tony tony Chopper is freaking cute!! (Y)

Heeeeeee :3 It's just too much, he's just too cute :D Heart meltss!! When I read about him, his story, I cried! Imagine how touched I actually was. TT So touching!!

I really cannot accept what you said before. Please take that back. DON'T THINK YOU KNOW EVERYTHING. :)

So PMR's like over except for chinese. Hahaha, go have fun and don't sleep people!! :D Party like it's the end of the world tonight!! :D

It's hard to imagine that it was me in their shoes last year trying to answer those questions. It's me who prayed for easy chinese questions. And it was me doing all my last minute study.

Anwar said, to be a good last minute study student, you must have this mindset: PHEW! I CAN DO IT! I STILL HAVE 10 MORE HOURS TO EXAM! I CAN DO IT! PHEW~~ Hahahaha! He was hillarious during revision class yesterday.

Calm mindset: I STILL HAVE 1 MORE WEEK TO EXAM. SURE CAN :P
Messed up mindset: CRAP EVERYONE'S STUDYING AND I'M STILL ONLINE. GOD WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!? WHY CAN'T I STUDY.

Heeee :3

I don't know why but I always get the feeling you do something for another reason. And now I have proof :D

2011-10-06T22:19:00.001+08:00

RIP Steve Jobs. :)

I have tons to say.. So don't read if you don't have the patience kay.

First off, I'm no longer wearing white bandage on my left ankle. *claps* It feels very very vulnerable, like it might crack anytime. And now, it reveals my swollen ankle which is like still swollen but not as much as the day I sprained it. Well, the good/bad thing is I can't fit my swollen leg into the prefect shoes. IT HURTS. So I decided not to wear it to school tomorrow. Cause it hurts like seriously I don't wanna even walk -.-

Love is definitely in the air now. Just being in class, I can sense lotsa love particles around. To near or to the further ones. :P I feel like a widow now -.- Maybe mom's instinct's right, maybe I'll be married to my job TT Or taemin :P Or Kim Hyun Joong :P Or Lee Min Ho :P Or Yoseob :P Heeee :3 Conclusion is: 3 left out ;)

A heart is fragile. Love makes it vulnerable.
'the first few months, can be happy like shites.
wait till the next few months, next year, next few years,
how will you feel?'
-wai kit-

And ehm, we had this surprise birthday for su jane. BTW, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SU JA-NE! You know how I pronounce it :P Heeee :3 So yeah! You're awesome and I don't know why but I prefer talking to you in english cause it felt right that way :P Hehehehe all the best in your studies and everything yeahh!!

Okay back to the party, it was -.- filled with many failed attempts. Hahaha, well technical errors and stuff. And the second surprise party was from her mom was kinda failed as well cause I misinterpreted what mel was saying and I feel bad -.- It's like I popped the balloon before I'm supposed to!! AHH!!

I like touching the swollen part of my ankle :3 It feels so bumpy :D

I had a hard time napping in the afternoon because there was no electricity -.- When I woke up from nap, tadaaaa electricity's back on. Great -.- Well, at least today I'm only 10 minutes late for tuition :D FIRST TIME WEH! Okay, that's nothing to be proud of -.-

Hehehe, don't take this personally but really do you have to know everything? I mean I know it's your character and character is like hard to change -.- Or impossible, I might say so, but please mind your own bussiness? You're making me hahaha no us harder to trust you everytime you do something like that. How can we trust you with our secret if you blurt it out everytime? And how will you feel if someone investigated your secret out? You don't know.

You haven't experience the pain we've endured so for sure, you'll go by the book and follow the rule, have you ever ever ever thought of how painful it is? Even touching it hurts and you have no idea. You better pray that you don't sprain/fall down/cut yourself when I'm still in school cause I'll make sure we'll take turns to torture your wound until we're happy :P

So yeah, please la. I know it's SAVE LIFE first COMFORT second. But their lives are not in danger so don't make them uncomfortable kayy. :)

Chukaeyo :) You must be flying on cloud 9 right now. I'm so happy for you. My close observations are never wrong :P You sold yourself out :D Hehehehe, but actually, I wasn't shock. Well maybe a little but still I expected it so. Wow, someone has grown up huh ;D

I really feel like a kid now :)

One piece is getting really nice -.- I shouldn't read it shouldn't read it shouldn't read it! *slaps forehead* shouldn't have started reading. But I pray for Eiichiro Oda. :) I don't want him to be like Yoshito Usui :( I LIKE SHIN CHAN A LOT! And hehehehe the creator's name have usui's name in it *heart melts*

I have a weird sister. And a weirder father. Cause right now, downstairs, they're both watching korean drama. And they're analyzing the whole story. Something I never thought would happen. My dad singing the latest songs, something I never thought will happen either.

Something very funny happened today:
sis: eh pa, later got xxx drama.
dad: really? what time?
sis: err i think around xx time.
dad: okay, I fetch girl (me -.- DONT LAUGH) then come back I watch.
sis: okay! FASTER AR!

And I was like -.- the whole time zzz

I want to keep everything that's here, HERE. Nowhere else. Please? :)

Err that's all. Mom's gonna help me rub the blue black patches on my foot. Mom did something that pissed me off today -.- Don't wanna tell what but fine, since no one's hurt EXCEPT ME -.- I'm fine :)

just because everything's changing,

doesn't mean that it has never been this way before.

-the call; regina spektor-

2011-10-04T23:02:00.002+08:00

So true and cute. It's like sitting down relaxing on a beautiful sunday night when your neighbour turned up the volume of their stereo. ANNOYING SHITES :D

I did something out of the blue today. I egged my blue black. The term egg- using an egg to rub on the blue black and swollen part to reduce swelling. Taught by my gramma. Haha, it seems better and it hurt less :D I'm gonna do this more often :D It's kinda comfortable. Well compare to the pain wearing flip flops -.- Egging it is much better :D

I'm gonna ask kakak to rebus another one soon :P Maybe tomorrow.

AHH!!! Should've gone to tuition yesterday. Joey and Lokyee had so mcuh fun EATING KFC! OMG! I missed a chance to eat KFC -.- Iish, and god knows how much I like eating deep fried chicken..

Exams coming soon and I'm really really trying to study ~~butwithallthesoundpollutionaroundidon'tthinkicanstudyproperly~~ Heeeee :3 I'm trying really hard to understand local history zzz I have no interest whatsoever in local history.

I kinda pity the egg I used to egg my foot. It's squished!!! Poor thing TT

Solve this equation: Express i in terms of u

9x-7i > 3(3x-7u)

I don't know why people can just give this reason: 不想做. I mean whaddahell is that? A reason like that is invalid. To me. But fine, we gotta except things as they are.

Lately, I prefer quiet over noise like obviously hello who prefer noise -.- Well maybe noise at the right time not ALL THE TIME! -.- Haha fine, my mom told me not to swear :)

EGG EGG EGG WHEEEEE

I will only go with you (A fantasy that isn’t far away)
To this word full of imagination
Without an end, never end, this is Neverland

-neverland; ukiss-

2011-10-03T22:29:00.000+08:00

Went to the doctor with hopes that finally I can shower without putting my left foot into a plastic bag and I came back with yet another strong herb smell. Stench maybe. Hahaha, but I'm getting used to the smell and I kinda like it.

I seriously thought it was okay already, but it wasn't. Now another part is swollen -.- It's like the swollen parts keep moving from here to there. And there's this big piece of blue black starting to hurt and wtf this is so so stupid -.-

Tomorrow's pmr and I really wanna wish everyone all the best again :D

I wanna RUN

2011-10-02T21:58:00.002+08:00

I wonder when are they gonna sell M&M in bottles like that. I'm so gonna buy em -.- Hehehehe, mind you I love M&M. And the reason why I stopped eating them was because my mom say they have a lot of colouring bla bla bla. I really like it when the colour stays on your tongue :D It's like so colourful hahahahahaha!!

Okay, went back to kampung yesterday. To err pray for the 九王爷. Mom told us last minute so we pack light. Lighter than camp -.- Where I didn't even pack my toothbrush. The temple was packed and there were lotsa people eating vege there. I lost my appetite somewhere along the crowd. I walked pass a bridge that stamped a big red ink on the back of my favourite shirt my uncle brought from america -.- I was like NO MOTHER I DON'T WANNA GO! But in the end, my shirt was ruined. End of story.

I went for this err whaddaya call that, 求签 is it? And haha I've learnt that it shouldn't be revealed simply. So keeping that to myself. But my first time experience, kinda cool 'cause I've seen em do it lotsa time in movies, now I get to do it myself :D

Well, mostly when we say balik kampung, it mean playing cards and err mahjong for the adults. Getting quite bored of playing cards already. Slept at a shocking 11.25pm on a Saturday night! Well, we chatted in bed. We as in me, my sis, my cousin bro and cousin sis. I dosed off I don't know when zzz and the next thing I knew a thunderstorm was blowing outside -.-

And I didn't sleep properly cause the pillow keep slipping off my head. Thanks sis -.- ~~she gave me the rotten pillow cause she found out it was rotten -.- how sweet of her~~ Anyways, my sis cousin bro and cousin sis went to play in the drain, which is pretty nasty to describe here hahaha, it might gross some people out if they can't really get what we were doing-- we were trying to catch fishes. Tiny ones. Which ended up being food to those bigger ones in my gramma's aquarium.

This morning, the 九王爷 had a walk around the kampung I guess. And there were people on trance. No comments about that... Keeping it to myself. I pray sincerely from my heart (Y)

Kay, update on my left ankle, it's getting better now, I'm kinda worried about applying pressure on it cause it hurts. And I can't really twist it as good as I used to now. It sorta hurts when I try to. Like a sharp pain. Heeee, I really wanna get well soon :3 But I don't wanna wear prefect shoes.

Oh yeah, exam's coming like damn soon. So is canteen day. My first canteen day in SAB! :D WHEEEEE!

I'm saving money wheee! :D

2011-09-30T22:41:00.003+08:00

I really really really love watching peter pan when I was young. There was a period of time when I even believed that he was real and can really fly. I actually look up to the sky and check for the big bright star. I watch peter pan everyday when I was young and never got tired of it even till now. I'll never get tired of disney, no matter how old I am.

One thing I like about peter pan is his ability to fly. I'd really like that now. Walking is such pain for me now. I know it will go off, I know it will, but it still bloody hurts now especially when I stand up. It's like I'm spraining my leg all over again and the sharp pain. OMFG. Really, I have to pause for a moment or three before continuing my steps.

This might be the cheapest camp I paid for RM 75 but just the chinese doctor fee, already cost me RM120. I really feel dumb for falling down easily. It's my first time spraining my leg.. And I thought cramp was the worse thing that could happen to me. Spraining is way wayyyy worse -.-

The blood? The err useless blue black blood is constantly moving around my left ankle making it painful. I think there's gonna be a dark blue patch on my forefoot next time. And gosh it's not pretty -.- Not at all.

The doctor says I walk too much. So now, I'm trying my best to stay immobile. Like a plant. Hahaha, seriously it's been a long time since I feel the wind brush my hair. AH! Frustrated! I'm bloody frustrated now.

I want nothing more than to bend my ankle back into its own position.

I want nothing more than to walk normally at my normal pace.

I want nothing more than to jump and run as I wish.

I want nothing more than to walk down the stairs normally, not like an old lady.

Really, it sucks. THIS sucks.

Now, I admire the disabled, for being so strong when the society gave up on them. For being so strong, to continue walking, when everyone else is ahead.

I'm trying to cause less trouble for everyone. But still, thank you. Sincerely from my heart.

Heeeee and to all form 3 people out there. xD Good luck and all the best for PMR! :D After sitting PMR, you'll realise how hard the school papers are and how easy the actual paper is. :D

Xue Lameeeeee!!! GOOD LUCK AND ALL THE BEST WEH SAPOH! Hahaha, can't wait to see your profile picture on facebook 24/7 being online. And watch city hunter ahh!!! :D GAMBATEH!!! (Y)

a miracle starts whenever you dream

2011-09-27T23:07:00.002+08:00

And I'm still not ready for 2011 to be my past.

Writing everything down so that I can read it in the future.

Kem Motivasi Bersepadu. Or we call it as kem bersepadu. Err, everyone went. Well, at least all my friends did. It was fun hahaha no doubt about that. Okay, let's start with on the way, we had to stop at 2 places for like damn long before the bus driver wanna move on to our destination -.- Like wth it's damn hot in the bus zzz

And then, when we finally reached and caught a first glimpse of our instructor, my my my -.- I thought he was those kind of sergeant that screams at the top of his lungs to get us to do something. But turns out, I'm wrong :P Hahaha, Pak Ngah I think -.- is really funny :D And gosh, his sense of humour is really good. But still, broga's the best ;)

The activities there, quite little. But all tiring. The break time. Wow. zzz It's like tripple the break time we get during pbsm camp and pbc camp zzz. Hahaha but the good thing about this camp was I finally get to experience the flying fox :D I keep calling it firefox -.- It was so fun omg. I don't know why vivien cried zzz it was so fun wtf hahahaha I was like going wheeeee all the way down. I thought the instructor was gonna push me down but I realised I have to do it on my own -.- Awkward moment. 40 feet high and all I felt was this: OMFG I WANNA JUMP DOWN NOW! JUMP JUMP WHEEEE!!!

Cob web. Was fun actually. Err there was some funny moments but hahaha secret :P My hand hurts after doing all that lifting, suddenly, being so light isn't all bad :D Make things easier for people :D And the 12 feet wall. Once I saw it, I never once thought that I could go pass that wall -.- Cause it's like so bloody tall, I'm not even half of the height! Hahaha but then still, I'm proven wrong. Once again -.-

Okay, the fun part was all that, like seriously zz Only lasted for a day and a half. Then, during obstacle course.

The funny thing that always make my mom laugh is this: I managed to get pass the difficult courses but not the easy one -.- seriously, I feel really stupid falling down like that zzzz. Note to self: next time do not hold anything while doing obstacle course. The story of it was pretty much a blurr zzz It happened all in one second and the next thing I knew was a loud crack from my ankle and sharp sharp pain.

My first sprain wasn't terrible and serious. This was really -.- My ankle was swollen. Like the size of my fist. Okay, maybe smaller but you get how big it is -.- everyone who saw that was like omg, it's like you have goitre on your ankle -.- Hahaha and having being injured myself, I couldn't treat myself -.- Not possible zzz So I had two taekwondos qiu and mel help me. Epic -.-

I had difficulties walking. And the first time I walked after spraining the steps were so small -.- I was annoyed and angry at myself for being so dumb zzzz

After the sprain, I really couldn't do anything more. It hurts when I walk, it hurt when I don't even do anything. Okay, it hurts all the time -.- Night walk well, I was exempted. Not that I was happy about it. I was actually kinda looking forward to it -.- And rafting. Really pissed at myself for not being able to join that.

My life has always been full speed ahead. Especially during primary. 100m 200m When I walk, I either run or cut pass people who walk slowly. Now, it's me who's walking slowly! And it is really something I cannot stand. Being slow. Sometimes when I wanna go somewhere like so quick I wanna run, all I can do is limp. Now I really question whether can I run like I used to. Cause whenever I walk, there's a sharp pain in my ankle.

When qiu accidentally kicked my leg during camp, the pain was so tremendous, tears just rolled down without control. Streaming and I was trying to catch my breath from the pain. Teachers said that I need to go to the doctor, I did and regret doing that. I was allergic to the medicine the doctor gave and my eyes was swollen. Like my leg. But now it's fine :)

Really, I don't blame qiu for what happened cause it's not like she did it on purpose to test whether is my pain receptors still present hahaha nooo. :) Haha seeing you almost crying I felt like omg I cried too much -.- Hahaha, I'm sorry if I scared you, it's just so painful ;)

But then again I'm really grateful to have friends that help me around everywhere and do everything for me. Like taking a chair into the bathroom cause I can stand while I shower, helping me wash my dishes after my meal and even take my food for me :) Really, I appreciate everything you all did :)

And to those fellow campers who constantly asked how was I and whether am I okay, for the 219048219351234719283751908570812479185715018475018465107836401 73 time, I'm okay :)

Sometimes, it's not entirely okay but I still say I'm okay :D

Went to chinese doctor for treatment. Hahaha I wanna get well soon and run like I used to :D

Anugerah Koko tomorrow. I'm starting to worry how am I gonna wear my formal uniform and shoes. Gonna take some time zzzz..

And wearing my crocs to school is like the funniest thing ever -.- Dark blue doesn't go well with apple green. And thanks for the compliments on my crocs ;)

Had fun during raptai anugerah koko just now :D xuelame was being lame once again -.- Hahahahah gosh it's so entertaining!!!!

Going to type my prefect letter now.
Bye bye :D

i wish you're banned fro my blog

2011-09-22T22:12:00.002+08:00

CLICK ON THE PICTURE!!!! CLICK ON IT!

I just found that cute. I have no idea what it is. Found it randomly somewhere. :D It somehow looks like me and err cause I vacuum everything in when I'm hungry :3 The main point was it was cute :D

I'm using the new layout now, needs some getting used to but I love the colour :D It's whitish grey.

Last minute packing for camp. Hahaha, I've always hated packing for camps. I always seem to forget what to bring -.- And when I reach the campsite, I remember what it was. OMG, haven't pack comb!! -.- Self reminder: bring comb. bring comb.

Last time, when I was packing for camp:
Packs two days before camp or more. Err, how many shirts do I need? Pants? Omg should I bring my own fork and spoon? Sleeping bag? What's it for? Ahhh, jungle trekking! TT Running up and down around the house like a mad girl -.- Looking for stuff.

Now, I got wayyy smarter ;) Now when I'm packing for camp:
Always do it last minute. Go to room, take out the regular shirts and pants I wear for camp. Go downstairs, take my socks, mosquito repellent, etc etc. Go out prepare sports shoes and crocs. Takes back from study room. Stuff everything in. BOOM! I'm ready for camp ;) Oh yeah I'm so good at this now :D

Okay, now I'm mentally recalling what I haven't packed in yet. -.-

I hope the campsite will be awesome :D We're living in dorms, so err, yeah no air cons TT It should've be like broga's! It is air conditioned! So well that it was freezing cold at night that I need to use my sleeping bag :D (Y) I miss pbc and pbsm camp :D

Oh yeah, bring phone and some money. Remind remind remind!

I think that's all I guess. :) TTFN :D

OMG STUPID ME -.- I forgot to update about sab talent showcase zzzzz HAHAHAHAHAHA this is later editted :D

Ehh it was awesome :D There's lotsa yeng people out there :D I wonder why SAB lack people like that TT Sometimes it makes me wanna transfer :P Hahaha all in all it was awesome :D Oh yeah if you want better coverage, better read The Star ;) Promoting my friends :D Bwehehehehehe

2011-09-21T21:49:00.003+08:00

Hello.
I don't understand how I can answer hard questions during tuition time and not at home -.- I don't get it. It's so stupid mai god. And in school, I'm like a total blurr at what I'm actually doing so I'll be like writing down whatever and answering whatever -.- I need to study.

I like doing experiments. Okay that's random. We did the precipitate thingy today for chemistry. It was fun. It's amazing how anions and cations work beyond the view of our eyes. I really really wonder how can scientists even go errr what's that word.. nevermind -.- The point is how can so many ions and atoms be found. Making my life miserable :P

Going to camp soon. According to the schedule, there won't be any water games. How nice. I think the only water I'm gonna get in touch with is my own sweat. Okay that's gross -.-

I think there's like 3 more weeks to exam? Or less? Okay, I don't wanna know.

I suddenly miss See Kee a lot :) Seeing all her facebook pictures make me realise how far away she actually is. Kawad won't be the same without her. :') Miss you tons see kee :)

Talentime tomorrow. SAB is filled with talents we wanna show it off. Heh. We are awesome :D

Okay, I have nothing else to say.

It's only 10 and I'm freaking bored -.- Everyone's studying their heads off for exams. Facebook is like deserted :O Awesome -.-

I used to stay up late till like 2 or 3 in the morning. Now? Not anymore. I sleep at 12 now -.- 12. And when I'm in school, my energy is like drained right out from me. I rather sleep late and have more energy than to sleep early and have no energy. I'm so weird yes I admit.

Stop being a nuisance ; stop annoying me ; sheesh just get out of my life la. Much appreciated thanks.

Okay, I'm officially out of topics. Bye.

can someone like freaking online? -.-

2011-09-19T21:39:00.003+08:00

Err assume today is 16th September. Happy Malaysia Day! :D I heart Malaysia ;) Though I may go overseas next time hahaha who knows. The future is so hard to predict! :D

Well, Friday, Malaysia Day. Clarice finally finished her upsr and I'm so damn happy for her. :D Mom took us to pavilion :D I don't know why but I prefer pavilion over klcc, times square, mid valley any time. I guess it's the atmosphere. And now the tokyo street in pav makes me wanna go there even more :D The food there in tokyo street. Heaven TT I can walk around there for hours just eating and eating and walking :D Heee :3

Bought quite some stuff in pav :P I can see pigs with wings carrying the money away. :D And well, texted cass that there's this tokyo street and she flew to pav from klcc -.- Hahaha maybe she wanted to see mee (Y) Oh gosh I'm so hyper now! :D Yesh yesh I'm gonna blog more now :D Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee xD

Okay okay, so what was I gonna say..

Oh yeah, JOHNY ENGLISH. Really, I can't really remember the last time I laughed this hard in a cinema till I had cheek cramp. Seriously funny shite -.- HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Seriously go watch it those who haven't watch it. :D Although the content may not be for all ages but just go have a good laugh :D Really makes you forget what's happening outside of the cinema.

My favourite line:
operator: what's our altitude?
tucker: err about 18 inches?

Seriously I laughed like hell here. Well, there's lotsa part hahaha but I think you better watch it first -.- Really very funny. I wanna go watch it again!!!

Going to kem bersepadu this week :D SO EXCITED! BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Bet this camp's not gonna be the usual ones I have. Cause there's gonna be a bloody ceramah. -.- Heee :3 but it's not like I hate listening to random people talking about things that I don't care and I'm sitting there pretending that I'm listening but all I wanna do is get out and do something else. No no no it's not like that. Well, not all the time :D

Speaking of ceramahs..

I'm really sorry you didn't make it. I wanted to go badly myself too and I know how important this is to you. I mean when we go to level competitions, our style is totally different, I know different is better but still, we have to learn the new format. I'm in no position to judge this :) But please know that I didn't choose anything over anything. I'll never let go of kawad and pc, just know that kay.

Suddenly, I miss kawad so much. 31 people ;)

Hello there, please mind your own business and fly your own kite :3 I hate people like you ;) So so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so get lost xD

Hello there, stop doing things that annoy me okay. -.- I really really hate it. Stop doing things as you wish. I'm really really NOT happy :D

I really like being around people that makes me happy.

I really like food :3

Oh yeah wyq you crazy or what -.- Passport holder?! wtf hahahahahaha! The music pillow I still can accept but passport holder -.- COME ON!!! But it's still cute :D

Hahahahaha okay, bye :D

stfu stupid

2011-09-15T22:07:00.002+08:00

currently playing: thanks to :)

Interviewed for the first time in my life. I have to say it's a nice experience for I've always been interviewed and finally I get to interview people. I was excited no doubt, was being so high in school all about it. :D Thinking of questions to ask.

I don't know why but I've always find interview useless. But now, I changed my mind, cause through interview we get to know you better :) So please don't be so scared, we're not gonna eat you. Even though it seemed like it. I'm sorry if I said anything that made you uncomfortable or unhappy. If any of us did that, so sorry. :)

So don't cry and smile :)

Finally started reading one piece after hy asked me to read since so long cause kah en so happen to have the manga :D Err, the manga's not bad actually but lotsa violence that's for sure -.- It's like non stop killing and bleeding. Haha, I find it quite entertaining and of course there are some touching parts.

Congrats to all UPSR students! xD UPSR over dy. Okay lemme clarify something with my sister who so happens to be reading this: after upsr doesn't mean you can use the computer ALL THE TIME. Don't get addicted to korean dramas -.- AND! AND! AND! Can you like log off your account before it's my turn? -.-

Reading back what I wrote before, it felt so weird. -.- I don't know why it just feels so.

Kay I'm out of topic.

2011-09-12T22:11:00.005+08:00

currently playing: easy- beast

Yesterday was 11-9-11. The tenth year anniversary of the world trade centre terrorist attack. TV was filled with documentaries of them. And of course I had to watch em since my mom and dad are so so so interested with world affairs.

I don't think any word can describe my feeling watching it. Even though it's 10 years later, even though it's already done and USA is already as advance as it is now. I still feel like flying over to help em.

'Mommie, where's the world trade centre? It's gone.'

'Hi dad, there's a lot of smoke, I don't know if I'm gonna be okayy.. Please tell mom I love her so so much.. I love you dad.'

'911? A bomb just went off just now. There's a lot of smoke. There's about 100 people with me. Please hurry...'

'Hi mom, please don't worry the tower attacked was tower 1 and I'm at tower 2. Please do not worry about me, security said tower 2 is safe and secure. Call me back okay. Bye love you.'

'Is it a planecrash...'

I'll never forget the scenes where people cry and pop their eyes out in utter shock. Imagine, it was there a day ago, the next it's not. So much effort put into the tower and yet it collapses within a day.

I have no right to judge the whole thing but all the innocent people involved and to all the 3000 victim's family, I'm so sorry for all you've been through. You've been strong :) Moving on strongly, not everyone can do that. You guys are inspirational.

'It started out like every morning. I woke up, went down and made a cup of coffee. Suddenly, the phone rang. I usually don't pick up phones in the morning. But that day, I did. I was my daughter, I've never heard her sound like that. Her voice was formed of pure fear and panick. Being xxx miles away, all I can do is give her my advice and tell her to be strong. I'm very very grateful to be the last person in the outside world that my daughter contacted'

'I don't think anyone will ever forget the date 11-9-01. Ever.'

Those words will forever remain with me :)

UPSR starts tomorrow. I wanna wish my sissy here good luck and all the best :) I believe in ya! Whee! Cause after your UPSR I won't be grounded with you anymore wheee!! xD

Errr.. It's quite weird to have a dad so sings the latest songs on the radio. Yes it's very weird. -.- Like just now he was singing errr Marry You. Really very very funny. Hahahaha, he's singing now. And unfortunately even with my walkman on, I can hear him.

Yoseob's voice. OMG. I'm loving him more and more day by day. HARU HARU! :D Bwahaha! Like seriously I've never heard anyone sing like that before -.- His voice is really TT SO NICE! HEEE :3 Oh yeah, finally found that store joey was talking about at Times Square. My second heaven next to the book store. Filled with all stars collection OMG TT HAHAHAHA I'm going back there -.- I'm telling ya I'm going back there again!

Why isn't Shinee coming out with new songs.. TT I'm starting to think other bands are more yeng and listening to their songs more often now. TT Heee :3 But I won't forget taemin ever (Y) The first korean star I ever liked (Y) Heeee :3 I still go crazy when I see taemin's stuff ;)

Day one of prefect duty. The familiar feeling of warmth (heat) came back. The restricted movements once again come back. Wearing that blazer. Buttoning up to the highest button. All the familiar movements, this morning, it felt weird wearing it back again after so long. :) Still, I prefer pinafore much much more -.-

Prefect shoes is being a nuisance -.- Like seriously. I already have blisters on the first day. FIRST DAY! Wonder how can I last for a year! -.- OMG, it hurts like hell, once I get into class, second thing I do is take off my shoes and stretch my pity toes. This is what happens when malaysia shoes store don't sell size six and a half -.- My optimum shoe size :D

I wanna wear slippers to school. My feet hurts, like seriously -.-

Did you notice I didn't blog for two days? :O Seriously I had to blog today -.- I felt like bursting already! Err, basically I wrote whatever I wanna write. So hahahaha :D

Heyy you. Stop being a child will ya. Stop making a fuss over such a small thing :) It's not a big thing anyway. You know, you being like this, makes me feel that you're being more of a kid than me. So please. At least grow up a little can you :) Learn to think openly. Let's hope this coldplay won't continue :)

Take some time, go out of your house and look at the moon :) The moon's round. Just spend some time, looking up, although straining your neck, look at the stars that shine no matter what. Look at that the moon that shines till no end. Look at the dark blue sky. Happy mooncake festival :)

bye bye :D

good luck and all the best.
believe in yourself and have confidence.
life is all about making mistakes,
but at the right time ;)
gambateh kudasai.
hwaiting!!! :D

2011-09-09T23:01:00.003+08:00

PBC AGM yesterday. Activity planner. Me and Cass. Actually, I'm very happy that I got this post :) Cause next to photographer the next favourite post is actually this one. :) Thank you so so much. Kexin. Jengyee. Junwen. Xiyuan. Yuhan. Vivi. Jingyee. Menchau. Shanzhi. Xiaohuei. Xinhui. Eunis. 谢谢你们，我们会加油的.

We did another backdrop. Haha to others, it may seem that we love glitter and stars a lot because everything we do evolves around it. :D

To the form 5 who graduated from pbc, I'm gonna miss you all so so so much. Thank you so much for all you've done this year. All the memories you gave us, all the smile you brought to our face. Thank you so much. I'm really sorry we misinterpreted what you all meant all this while. I'm so sorry there was ever a misunderstanding between us. But no matter what, I still wanna say

thank you

(because I don't have much time, I'll thank you all one by one another time)

It's kinda hard to believe that I'm gonna be form 5 next year. I still remember when I just stepped into pbc and wonder what on earth is so fun about this club, ahahaha, I found it. It's really really something not everyone can understand. Words can't describe how I'm feeling now when I think and feel owh, I'm form 5 next year. A senior. Hahaha, actually, I'll always be just me. Not a senior, just a friend :)

AGM will forever be a memorable part of the year. No matter which club helds one, it's memorable in its own way. PBSM ; PBC. Both, I love equally with the same passion :) I'm quite eager to organise an activity for the f5. To once again experience how it's like being a member in a group playing with the others :) Heeeeee, I wanna make that happen :3 Gonna make that happen.

I reached home at 9.30 yesterday. It's like I'm working. :O For the whole day, what I've consumed is: curry puff. Yeah, my tummy was like -.- But when I saw food, I had no appetite. Lesson is: never starve yourself. EAT when you have the appetite.

I extremely hate it when someone tells me it's time to sleep -.- I mean hello? I'm 16?! Well at least I'm supposed to look like one. I know damn well when I wanna sleep and when I don't. I nap okay? NAP! That's also considered sleeping ya know? I manage my time perfectly well thank you very much. I know you'll go on with your oh it's not good for you if you sleep so late. You'll get pimples or get sick. Oh you won't have energy tomorrow. -.- HAHAHAHAHAHA funny.

I'm 16 and I know when's my bed time. Don't have to tell me every night.

Wai Kit gave me a errr.. I don't know what's that. It's not a weed. It's like a leafy branchy thing -.- HAHAHAHA. Anyways, he just gave it to me cause he got bored playing with it and I annoyed shen with it. Actually, I wrote this because he asked me to ahahaha! Thanks for the leaf/grass waikit! :D It's somewhere in my class I think :D

OKay, someone's asking me to sleep again. -.- How wonderful. Bye :D

2011-09-07T20:27:00.003+08:00

currently playing: be mine- infinite
currently reading: anne frank, diary of a young girl.

Hello :)
Believe it or not. I finished a chinese book. In old words :D As in traditional chinese and not simplified chinese. The kind of book that once I flip I'm gonna flip myself, the kind of book that I immediately close once I opened it, the kind of book that you read from up to down, right to left, the kind of book I never thought I'd read. But I read one. :)

One Litre of Tears by Aya Kito.
And oh gosh, it was so so so so so touching. One thing about people's diary (not that I'm intruding their privacy or anything), is it is so true. TT Like so so so true. Those words, I can imagine how they are feeling that exact time. It's like oh I don't know how to explain, even better than the series itself. :) The words really, I'll remember for the rest of my life :)

"To be able to smile and tell everyone this; i have, at least, cried one litre of tears. " ;)

Actually, I came here just to talk about the way I finished a book I never thought I'd hold in my hands.

AGM tomorrow. Doing everything in a fast pace now. Cheers, to tomorrow!! :D

The year's ending. Time flies like seriously wtf. Looking back at the camp pictures, everything seemed so distant but at the same time seemed so yesterday. It brought back lotsa memories, I'd definitely rewind 2011 again and again. All the laughter and smiles, I'll never ever forget em. Ever.

fleeting

2011-09-05T22:28:00.003+08:00

I've writing the same line over and over again. Summary. Gosh. Headache. So much homework. Haha, it's been long since I complain about homework. But somehow I get the feeling I'm gonna delay and procrastinate till tomorrow. Yes I do that ALWAYS. ;)

Seeing cousins being in vietnam, attending cousin's wedding. Heart ache. If it wasn't for my cute lil sister, I could have been there, playing with gunfire, looking at stuff they're looking at. But nevermind, being in malaysia, other than reading and staring at my computer screen, there's so much more (nothing) I can do xD So I just wanna thank my sister for this wonderful opportunity. -.-

Ah yes, I'm still sad that my passport hasn't been to vietnam yet. -.- eish.

After all the words said, I'm really still speechless. Things happen too fast now. I can barely catch up. One minute this happen and the next another.
But really, after all this, after all the effort, thank you.
Thanks for putting in the effort.
Thanks for clarifying it.
Thanks for everything no matter what.

Let the past make you better, not bitter ;)
Remember.

Okay, I think I should get back to my homework. But facebook is oh so annoying. -.- Keeps popping up with new notification and I'm always oh so tempted -.- Ah, why did I even on the computer in the first place -.- Oh yeah, hahaha to print lisan. Crap.

Oh yeah! I can finally play because I'm stupid properly TT Oh gosh I'm so proud of myself :D I think I play that song everyday. Hahahaha and I don't get bored. When mom hears the same old melody again, the first thing she says is: your korean song again? any other ar?

Somehow, it's the boring things I remember most. -russel; UP-

So true :)

100 facts about me

2011-09-03T22:09:00.005+08:00

i'm a girl if you notice clearly
i used to have long hair but now i don't understand how i put up with it for so long
yes i prefer short hair more than long hair
i like hairbands and hairclips with ribbons on it
i can swim
i can ride a bicycle
i once fly a kite so high it actually got lost and never came down
i like drizzles
i hate thunders and lightnings
i LOATHE cats
i LOATHE hearing cats meowing
i LOATHE being near cats
i LOATHE seeing cats
i like eating ice cream
i like the feeling when i eat ice cream in a cold winter day
i like seeing rainbows
i like figuring shapes of clouds
i'm very into flowers
i can either eat a lot or don't eat at all
i am 16 going on 10
i am a 16 year old who look like a primary school student
i like fooling around with my sister
i watch drama till late at night or should i say morning
i watch drama at a crazy speed of a drama in 4 days
i fall in love easily with the actors in the drama
i always predict what's gonna happen next
i don't like to read the ending before the book ends
but i like to know the ending of the drama before it ends
i like chewing gum and blowing bubbles out of it
i like the feeling when the wind brushes my hair
i like climbing up on a slide
i like swinging to the max and feel like i'm flying
i like to read upside down
i once thought my shoes are shrinking because i can't fit into em
i love my parents a lot
i love my sister a lot because she's the one who can be crazy with me all the time
i love my friends a lot and cherishes people who stand by me
i love life a lot and live it to the fullest
i used to have a dog for my one year old birthday present but he's not hear anymore
i like standing in the middle of a see saw
i like getting clean after being dirty
i like getting dry after being wet
i don't like wearing skirts
i like the colour white a lot
i fall down easily
i like eating seaweed
i like jumping on my bed
i like it when my dad tug me into bed when i was young
i never cover myself with blanket when i was young cause that's daddy's job.
i can't believe i'm half way through this thing
i get hyper when i get less sleep
i eat a lot when i'm sick but i don't do anything
i scream when i see some korean stars on posters
i buy a new pair of crocs every year
i like sweaters with hoodie
i can finish a pack of junkfood in no time
i get sleepy when i attend classes i find BORING
i've always wanted a iphone but when my dad asked me if i wanted one, i said no
i've always believed in miracles
i dislike people who lies and cheats
i like fried chicken; who doesn't
i don't like eating new stuff, i prefer eating back the old stuff that i like best
i always order the same food in the same restaurant
i like ice cream with chocolate topping at mcdonalds
i never check my mail
i watch a lot of cartoon and influenced dad as well
i like the apple flavour of everything: vitagen, sweets etc
i've always wanted a hamster to cuddle/squeeze
my weight is always constant no matter how much i eat
my fingers are soft and mom says its boneless
i created a tumblr account to get quotes and nice pictures
i prefer the night time more than the day
i like sitting in a corner and doing nothing sometimes
i like reading a lot
i like to imagine how to commit a perfect murder crime when i'm bored
i used to think how will life be after death
i like to memorise time intervals for classes
i used to memorise the rooms of hotels i've stayed in but i stopped cause i forgot
i find the korean language interesting
the watch i'm currently wearing ticks oh so loudly
i like reading people's blog and see how they think
i like blogging, it's like a public diary where i can write whatever i want
i've always wanted to fly
i like the feeling when an airplane takes off
i like the smell of a new book
i like arriving in another country and see new words everywhere
i like asking my mom where're we going tomorrow
i like holding my passport and scan my thumbprint in immigration
i like giving my ticket to the ticket man in the movie and he'll believe im still a kid
i hate wearing glasses, that's why i don't wear em
i like ice skating but haven't been skating for a long long time
i once got lost in a lift but my mom found me
i get claustrophobic sometimes when the space gets too small and tight and crowded
i don't like dissapointing people
i hate people who breaks promise
i like sitting on the couch and doing nothing
i like waking up and it's still dark
i like stapling papers and punching holes into them
i like chatting with people and get all hyper till i cannot sleep
im thankful that you read this far :)

Heeee :3 this came out of nowhere. :)
I'm sick trying to recover.

Monday's school day again.
See ya

2011-09-02T01:11:00.002+08:00

Have a smurfy day

2011-08-30T13:37:00.004+08:00

I don't know how to blog in peace now :3 All the time, whenever I type something, I think for a long long time, whether will it hurt someone. And in the end, mostly everything I type will ended up being backspace-ed or deleted and never surface on my blog. I don't know why am I blogging like that. It's my blog for god's sake. I can type just whatever I want. I'm not the kind of person who deletes my posts.

I don't want anyone to get hurt.
I don't want to post hateful posts anymore.
I don't want to be moody anymore.
I don't want to see everyone having a hard time.
I don't want anyone to cry anymore.
I don't want this year to end like this.
I don't want people to think bad of us.
I don't want people to say we're disrespectful.
I don't want people to remember us this way.
I don't want people to say bad things about us.
I don't want see that look on everyone's faces.
I don't want to stop trusting people.
I don't want to lose more trust.
I don't want to create hate in this world.
I don't want to continue thinking that this is gonna end the bad way.

I want things to end the nice way ;)

Please?

You know.
Making friends is harder.
Every time I try to forget it.
Something pops right back.
Making it even harder to forget.
I know.
We're humans.
Human makes mistake.
Tell me.
Unless you read minds,
you can't tell what's on my mind.

Life is a like a storybook.
And we're like the reader.
A storybook is filled with ups and downs.
Filled with suspense.
Filled with surprises.
Each chapter a new beginning.
Each book a different stories.
Every word is what makes the story goes on.
Miss one word,
and the story might end up differently.
If the reader misses a word,
If the reader read the wrong word,
If the reader missed out the most important word,
If the reader skipped a page,
If the reader jumped to the last page,
If the reader got frustrated and closed the book,
:)
you tell me what happens then.

Take life one word at a time.
So don't jump from chapter 1
to the last page.

Thank you.

2011-08-26T23:48:00.004+08:00

Currently playing: because i'm stupid.

I don't wanna create hate in this world.
Hate is a really strong word.
To describe a feeling of utter disgust towards a person.
I don't know why but I've never used the word hate.
Until now.

I'm trying to smile at everything.
To smile even when other people are not.
To smile even when all I wanna do is frown and sit in a corner.
To smile even when I'm god damn tired.
To just cheer everyone up.
It seems like my thing to do.
I'm trying really hard.
You ruined it, all my effort.

Last time.
It wasn't hard to smile at you.
I can smile easily.
I'm really smiling at you.
Now.
Sadly.
I'm trying my best to hold your eyes and smile truthfully from my heart.
It's so hard.
You have no idea.
Why?
Cause you did this to me and us and yet you have no idea.
It seems like the most natural thing to do.
Isn't it?

I'm being mean lately.
So mean I feel like I've changed completely.
I feel bad sometimes.
But seeing what you did,
I felt like I did the right thing.
There's a line in everyone's heart.
My line is considered hard to cross.
But you crossed it.
And once you crossed it,
there's no way of going back.
Once crossed.
I'll forever remember what you did.
I'll never forget whatever happened.
So, stay back.
It's my warning.

Being happy.
Define being happy.
Happiness is an abstract noun.
No one can catch happiness.
I know how to be happy, how to make people happy, how to feel happy, what to do to feel happy.
But you guys make me unhappy.

Each of us.
We bear the same emotions now.
Different characters.
The one who accepts everything.
The one who smiles no matter what and keep the sad feelings to herself.
The one who keeps all the sad things to herself so that others won't know.
The one who continues to work even though it is impossible.
The one who encourages us to continue and move on.
The one who cheers everyone up.
The one who sees the sides of everything.
Us.
Can you see us?
Worse still, you made me hear words I've never wanna hear from us.

Let the world see what I write.
Let em see how we feel.
Talk behind our back for all I care.
This is the truth.
And my words don't lie.

No, I don't wanna hear the rest.
Just one word.
Have you said that word?
Just two words.
8 letters.
Have you?
Have you ever said

thank you :)

It's best not to trust anyone easily now.
It hurts too much.
To find out the truth.
How everyone really is.
Isn't it?

Thanks for teaching me a lesson.
I'll never be like this again.
I've let everything out.
I've seen the real you.
I've learnt more than I should.
Thanks for your lesson.
I owe you one ;)

The rain will always stop.

o.v.e.r

2011-08-25T22:20:00.005+08:00

thank you

Currently playing: that man ; hyun bin.

(i have no idea how the pics always end up on top)

After knowing lotsa news together;
After the hard times we had;
After all the words we've heard;
After all the effort we've put in;
After cutting all the papers;
After writing all those words;
After pasting all those words on papers with glue stick;
After darkening and bolding the words with marker pens;
After rearranging everything and packing everything in;
After folding all those stars during class time;
After lum's family busy cutting recycled paper for the stars;
After finding all those bottles for keeping those stars;
After setting up everything last minute;
After running the whole school just to inform everyone about lantern riddles;
After retying everything from small lantern to big lanterns;
After satisfying teachers' needS;
After asking for help to tie lanterns on tiangs just cause I'm not tall enough;
After looking for number 11 and number 3 of lantern riddles;
After asking everyone to answer the riddles;
After seeing how they crack their head to finish one question;
After knowing it isn't as easy as I thought it would be;
After taking pictures of the lane that is filled with lanterns. :)
After reminding myself 2498305932598309578238507187 times to bring the camera;
After asking so many people about translation;
After feeling dumb for not knowing chinese so well;
After doing n times of poster correction;
After a long hard night of cutting stars;
After spreading glue on pieces of sugar paper;
After throwing glitter like kids;
After blowing all the glitter away until we're breathless and dizzy;
After almost stepping on cat shit for 39480957185041735198357 times;
After running around the whole school just to look for someone;
After screaming at each other for stuff that we want;
After yelling on top of our lungs for something we dislike;
After laughing like crazy over something other people might not find funny;
After repeating lame jokes from last time and yet still laugh;
After those hard times we've been through when we thought we cannot make it;
After hearing those words bu cuo for the first time;
After pasting it up for the last time;
After seeing it from the bottom stage;
After seeing it shine;
After seeing everyone saying wow it's nice;
After seeing it glow along the changing light colours;
After capturing everything on camera;
After uploading it on facebook;
After all those hard work.

I see it today :)
I'm so proud of us :D

pbc talentime 2011

Currently playing: so goodbye ; kimjonghyun

doubts

2011-08-23T19:59:00.003+08:00

Errr, wow I havn't blog for such a long time. Awfully proud of myself for not being so blog crazy. But I have so much to say. :D

First it's city hunter. Hahaha, it's nice :) And the effects of gunshots are really very interesting. I find myself looking at how scenes are shot at in drama or movies rather than follow the storyline. I'm weird -____- Hahaha but still gosh, city hunter totally changed my view of leeminho. :D SUGOIII!!! xD

After all those efforts, all those hard days, all those times when our fingers ached, not a single wow you guys did great. :) It's okay, cause I know we did great and we all know that too. Compliments is just an complementary thing for humans to lift their heart up. I don't need em. I don't know, maybe, ahhh nevermind I deleted what I wanted to say. Don't wanna create more hate in this world :D Wheeeeeeeee we spread the love (Y) Lee Minho :D aweshome!

Oh gosh, look at that look at the time. -____- sis's being my freaking annoying alarm and asking me to go to tuition I don't know why but her hobby of hers seem to be waking me up for no reasons or making me go tuition super duper early.

Kay la. I'll blog properly one day. :)

That one day is far away ;)

Bye

the mindset

2011-08-19T17:16:00.002+08:00

Walking gives me a sense of joy.
The feeling of being able to walk is just great.
To run, even better.
Probably the best feeling on earth next to flying without wings.
To walk is to enjoy life slowly and taking the world in step by step.
To walk is to take in the simplicity in life and watching people go by.
To walk is to look left and right and to front and never to the back.
To walk is to feel the wind upon your face and your hair dance in the wind.
To walk is to be grateful that we're given a pair of legs.
To walk is to explore.
To walk is to discover what life will bring the next time.
As each step we take, we move forward.
Never backward.

prime numbers

2011-08-17T21:39:00.002+08:00

3 weaknesses of yours

cats
junkfood
thunder

Since lately, my phobia of cats is getting worse and worse. Yes, you don't need to tell me that. I notice it myself. Whenever there's a slight move on the floor, I'll pierce my eyes through it hoping its not a cat. I'll take my legs up whenever I eat when there's a cat nearby. I run and make a big turn if a cat's in my way. When I see a cat, I scream like shite. I don't know whyyy!! TT But it's getting worse and it just got worst today.

I went to the koperasi to get something this morning. Then a cat came in. I screamed and climbed up on a chair. A teacher and the kakak was there. I didn't care. The cat was coming. And I was on a chair. Screaming. Luckily Qiu came and the teacher shooed it out. Seriously, I was freaked out to the max. TT

Meowing sounds freaks me the most. What's with their stupid voice box that makes out a sound like that? Just thinking about it makes me frown. So stop making those noises, I mean it. I can cry if I want to.

So I checked the treatments. Several websites say: first try looking at a photo of a cat, then watch a video of a cat, then look at a cat through a window, then be with a cat but it is leashed and you keep your distance, and finally, be in a room with a free roaming cat. I can't even do the first one properly and you ask me to be in a room with a free roaming cat?! NO WAY! TT

Websites say that once I pass childhood, it's hard to cure the phobia in adulthood. So. TT I'm dead! It's getting worse and worse. TT

But that's just a minor thing haha :D It's not like I'm going to see more cats when I leave SAB right! :D

And gosh hahaha, had a meeting with scouts and ranjer today. It was fun :D And we discussed lotsa about combine camp next year. I really hope we can make it and be the first to make this happen ;) It's like SAB history. OH YAY! (Y)

you make me sick :D

On Rainy Days

2011-08-14T16:01:00.003+08:00

3 things on your to-do-list

finish reading fallen series
finish watching la corda
convince mom that anime and manga and korean dramas are not a waste of time

Currently playing: Please- kimhyunjoong :)

Haha lately, I blogging with the company of music :D No idea why but it's like nicer to blog this way :) Ahhh hahaha even though I don't understand the korean lyrics of korean songs, it's somehow nicer that way. People say why listen to songs that you can't even decipher, but to me, that's the beauty to it ;)

So basically, tomorrow, everyone won't be in school. OMG, I'm gonna die of boredom tomorrow TT Everyone's going to that boring seminar hahaha, I'm quite happy I'm not going, but now, I feel like going. I DON'T WANNA BE ALONE IN SCHOOL!! TT

It's been raining damn lot lately. It thunders sometimes. Too hard I think. It scares me sometimes hahaa. Okay, understatement. ALL THE TIME. :P One thing about thunders, I can run away from them. Cats- I can.

Currently playing: break down- beast :3

Phew, I pray for the best. For everyone :)

Okay, I'm here to convince those anti manga, anti anime and anti korean drama people out there that there's nothing wrong with watching anime, reading manga or watching korean drama :P

MANGA. First there's strictly nothing wrong with reading it! WHY?! Cause manga is art. ART! We admire how the writer and artist draw the characters and bring them to live in our minds. The storyline, the effects of the words in our heart will never fade away. Manga has been alive for years and japanese read manga all the time so I don't see why I can't read em. I know the content is useless but please let people fantasize for awhile. Yes people don't fly and boys don't look as yeng, but I can dream, can't I? :)

Boys should really read manga. Cause that'd teach em how to be yeng and kind ;)

ANIME. There's also nothing wrong with that. Anime is a cartoon version of manga. It's more complex than manga because ever slightest different movement prompts the writer to draw a new scene. So we admire the beauty of it also. It's like your documentary or your CNN, except in a perfect manga form in action :D Don't tell me the content is useless or wasting my time. No no no I can't accept that sorry :D

KOREAN DRAMA. Okay I admit, the storyline of most of the korean drama is more of fantasy of an ideal love life. But the actors put their heart into it and make their fans happy. So there's nothing wrong with that I see. It's a form of performing arts. People like olden drama, taiwan drama, hong kong drama, so what's wrong with korean drama. :D

Okay haha, basically I'm just trying to convince my mom that there's nothing wrong with doing all these in my free time. Okay, I admit staying up late to watch is bad. But what can I do when I'm not sleeping. SHEESH! Hahaha, I'll try to control myself. ;)

currently playing: lights go on again :)
cause it always does
like how the sun rise after every night
see ya

Day 7

2011-08-10T17:10:00.002+08:00

3 of My Favorite Foods

junkfood sums it all ;D

currently playing: break down -- beast ;)

I'm back! Yeah I can finally say that :D Feels so nice to sit in front of the computer feeling so lifeless, scrolling up and down the facebook page finding what's on other people's mind simply popping up on my computer screen, looking and stalking stars and seeing what's new. Reading manga like there's nothing better to do. Searching google till it flips just to find the perfect wallpaper for my phone. Downloading songs so that my walkman's memory will be full. Wow, my life's so interesting ;)

Sitting down, behind class, outside class is such a wonderful feeling. The whole ecosystem is just in front of me. Plants doing photosynthesis, herbivores eating plants, carnivores eating herbivores. Life and death. The sky is just placed out till no end. The clouds float around lifelessly yet serving a purpose. And yet I'm there admiring nature's hidden beauty when I should have been studying. :)

Life is amazing. Isn't it :)

Life is filled with wonders. How do birds chirp? Why does the eagle flap its wings once and can fly for a distance without flapping when pigeons needo flap so many darn times? How does an ant feel when it's in a lawn of grass. Is it like a maze? Like how we are in a crowded city, lost and alone? Heee :3 I think so much

Some say, life is lifeless, we live life just to get through life. False. You can choose to continue, to turn back, or to take another path. :) Pandora hearts is always filled with nice quotes ;) That's one of the reasons why I read mangas, the words are always there. Pandora hearts really bring me to another dimension. Ahh haha I always feel like I'm in another world when I'm reading manga. Gosh I'm an otaku.

Basically, I stopped reading just to come blog. There's so much in my mind now I simply cannot write them all down now.

In life, people come and people go. We must appreciate their presence. Their presence is what makes us, US xD no?

I gotta go. Continue my manga :D

please, because i said please :)

Day 6

2011-08-06T22:18:00.003+08:00

3 things you do daily

text
online
laugh

and so much more :D

Please. I studied -__- Seriously I studied. Chemistry. D: Please don't kill me TT

What people usually say when one enters science stream is either this:

I LOVE CHEMISTRY! I hate physics. It doesn't make sense.

Or this:

I LOVE PHYSICS! I hate chemistry. It doesn't make sense.

So biology is always the middle one. But I'm sorta in the middle. I don't mind physics and I don't mind chemistry either. I just want those part that I understand to come out. One very good example of people who love chem and hate phy= cass and another who hates chem and loves phy= wyq.

Gosh #@()%!)%(! Shuddap la! -_____- Iish.

Haha ignore me, that was out of nowhere.

So hahaha! Back to the topic. I hate history. HATE HATE HATE EM. I guess I didn't get my mom's genes. She loves history -__- I don't get the point of studying the past. Yes we learn from mistakes but not to the extent of every single detail printed out. -___- Daddy's more of a maths person. Well my maths and add maths are blurr -__- I don't know how to explain it but sometimes I know how to solve and sometimes I don't.

I'm sooooo messed up!

HAHAHA XUE LAME!! THANKIU!! :D I shall be waiting for your pressie! Ahh good luck in chinese!! I pray and toss my erasers at all times during chinese! Bring two erasers! In case you lost one ;)

So basically, I'm online. To read. Pandora Hearts.

Heeee :3 bye

Day 5

2011-08-06T01:26:00.004+08:00

3 things you regret

running alone in the field and then my nightmare began.
laughing at my cousin for being so scared of thunder and now i am that person he laughs at.
-

WYQ. What did I say ;) Kpop rocks ;) And btw I'll give you the pendrive filled with beast's song after exams kay :D What did I say!? Are they awesome or what! On rainy days. Seriously! Haha! Yoseop's my favourite member in that group too :D He's sho cute ;) Heeeeeeeee :3 Seee! So now you're gonna sing crazy korean songs like me too! LALALALA!

Also, like wyq, there's tons of stuff I wanna do after the so called exams.

1. Read Pandora Hearts.
Thanks to heinyong. Hahaha I've started reading pandora hearts which is super yeng and super cool! :D But I stopped myself from reading further before I couldn't stop myself. Haha, you know how crazy I can get when I start something and can't end it. :D ;) Thanks heinyong :) For telling me so much about mangas and animes :D

2. Read Fallen.
It's a series by Lauren Kate I think. Haha, I've been wanting to read it for so so long! :D And now finally I found someone to borrow from, I'm gonna read to the end! xD

3. Download and learn korean songs.
Yes hahaha, I'm crazy but I think I wanna learn korean :D For many reasons, korean language appeal to me and I wanna learn more haha! Starting from watching their dramas and learning short phrases like otoke, andweyo, niga bouel etc ;) Life's so interesting with languages :D

4. Rewatch 1 litre of tears.
I don't know why but my gut tells me to ;) Hahaha and it's nice to cry out loud again no?

5. Practice violin.
My violin's been abandoned for so long cause of the exams. Gosh. Haha! Canon in D. Here I come! Maybe I should start learning guitar! So that I can learn because I'm stupid :D Accoustic version wheeeeeee!!!

6. Sleep.
Obviously everyone needs it. My sleeping time is just not right anymore :( So I'm trying to fix it. Haha, mom seriously I'm trying my best -____-

7. PBSM.
Problems must be solved once and for all :) Work's work and friend's friend.

The list temporarily ends here. I'm sure I can find more stuff to do.

BUH BYE!!

Day 3 and 4

2011-08-04T23:48:00.005+08:00

3 of your favourite drama (:D i changed it i know :D)

boys over flowers
secret garden
one litre of tears

3 people who changed your life

mom
dad
sister

(and many more)

Phew, I love printing stuff :) It gives me such a sense of accomplishment ;)

Finished doing the pbc poster. Hope it's okay. -__- I don't trust my simple taste at times haha! But still, it took me so long and wow it's not easy to make a poster like that. Take times and lotsa effort googling. What would I do without you google TT

Mai god. I forgot about dinner -________-

brb.

Editted.

Haha so people you see. I'm damn tired and full now. Which makes me sleepy..

Keeping my fingers crossed ;)

Day 2

2011-08-02T22:46:00.004+08:00

3 songs you can put on replay forever

wedding dress
that man
because i'm stupid

Should I thank you? For staying? Maybe I should but it is your responsibilty and it always will be. You can let it down because of your ego. I meant what I said; everyone has an attitude, we all have to change it for the better. Character is what defines ourselves, but don't let it overtake you. :) So thanks for staying, I really appreciate that.

For once, your undecided choice can be changed.

But I know the choices and decisions already made can't be change.

I won't hold you back :)

I believe we all won't :)

Don't give up on pbsm. Don't even dream of giving up on pc.

I won't allow that.

Seriously. :D

To all my muslim friends:

Happy fasting :D
Selamat berpuasa! :D

I really admire how they can go on one day without food. To think of I can't even live for a few hours without eating. I seriously. SALUTE :D

Well, the canteen's obviously quieter and less less crowded that's for sure :D

Mooncake festival's coming :D Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee candles :D Weird, the first thing that came into mind when I think about mooncake festival is the candles, the part where we burn stuff lifelessly :D And well, after that, then comes the mooncake! :D

Oh yeah, did I mention.. -__- exam's next week. GAH!!! I'm not even ready yet! I'm gonna study now!

Well maybe later -____________-

Hahaha, everyone's studying so hard now. Even xuelame doesn't blog now TT Ahhh xue lame how are yaaa!!

Okay la I got tons to do so buh bye :D

Day 1

2011-08-01T13:58:00.007+08:00

3 of my biggest fear

cats
thunder and lightning
closed confined spaces

It's august :)

Wow, I've been listening to that man and kim hyun joong's songs the whole day :D Are they awesome or what?! HEEEEEEEEEEEEE :3

Rewatching the videos Qiu recorded, wow hahaha, I didn't realise my expression was that errr hahaha sorry can't find the adjective I wanna use currently ;) But still thanks guys! :D Seriously you guys blew the last two days of july up for me ;D

10 Day 3 Challenges

2011-08-01T13:58:00.001+08:00

10. Three Strengths of Yours

9. Three Weaknesses of Yours

8. Three Things on Your To-Do List

7. Three of Your Favorite Foods

6. Three Things You Do Daily

5. Three Things You Regret

4. Three People Who Changed your Life

3. Three of Your Favorite Movies

2. Three Songs You Could Put On Repeat Forever

1. Three of Your Biggest Fears

kamsamida

2011-07-30T23:19:00.002+08:00

Seriously. Thank you. :)

You know, hahaha, I didn't want anything for my birthday this year :) Although it's not my birthday now, but still, I'm so in the mood :D

PS: currently playing: THAT MAN.

Wow today is awesome :D

This morning, mom told me we're gonna have dinner with her friends. Haha you know how I love my mom's friends. :) I went there thinking oh great, my saturday night gone. Just like that. Spending time with aunties :D HAHAHA! And when I went out for tuition, mom asked me to dress nicely. Gosh, who are those friends.

Reached leisure mall after tuition. Seriously wasn't expecting anything though I noticed my sister's acting weird the whole day. Hahaha, her behaviour: looking at me, when I caught her looking, she'll giggle. -___- Gosh, she's just like me. Hahaha, so we're eating at wong kok. Funny cause we don't usually eat there... PLUS. Awkward thing was: a long table was set out and reserved -___- First thing came into my mind: wow how many of mom's friends are coming -_____- I'm gonna be bored to death. That's what I thought.

Then when I was sitting down, thinking how the heck am I gonna spend the night/dinner with mom's friends. Checking out the wifi and listening to songs. AHHH! I don't wanna meet mom's friends. That's when I'm wrong. Totally wrong.

Happy birthday to you :)

Seriously I was expecting my cousins to be singing. It sounded so much like my cousins.

Then I saw

shi ern.
yun qiu.
Everyone. :O

HAHAHAHA! My first reaction: o.o is the bookfair in lm.

The truth was hahaha, they were planning to go to klcc book fair :D But instead they took a wrong bus and ended up here :DDD!! MAI GOD. I was speechless all the time!!! SERIOUSLY MAI GOD! And seriously good thinking ;) The whole scene in school was liddat:

Me: o.o you guys going bookfair?
Qiu: yeah!
Me: why didn't ask me -____-
Qiu: Errr chinese bookfair worrr...
Me: Oh yeah I don't wana go :P
Qiu: Seeee!

And scene number 2
Mel: err I don't know how to go back from klcc.
Me: o.o you're going to the klcc?
Mel: yeah.
Me: CHINESE BOOKFAIR WOR!
Mel: fine la liddat la!!!

(suspicious)

Guys. Thank you so much :) Thanks for another surprise party ;)

Thanks for saying it's a chinese book fair. :D And mel haha, I knew you wouldn't go to chinese bookfairs ;) People seriously thanks. :)

No words can ever say how grateful I am to have friends like you all.

And and and!!

The presents!!!!

I think my keyboard is gonna explode cause I'm typing so viciously!! :D I'm taking out all my excitement here!! :DDD IM LIKE SO FREAKING IN SHOCK HAHAHA!

kimhyunjoong break down album
big bang 4th mini album
patrick doll
angry bird hammer to hit my sis
bof cards :DD
totoro keychain
a jar filled with stars
cute teddy bear keychain
birthday cardS!
pig tissue holder
bagS!

Seriously kamsamida! :D kumayo!

All the moments I have you all, I will never forget :)

I'm grateful I have a mother who likes to plan surprise party.
I'm grateful qiu is such a good organiser.
I'm grateful I have you guys as my friends :)

I'm seriously thankful. THANKIU SO SO SO SO SO SO MUCH!

I love you all :)

你们哦。真的哦。。

thankiu :)

kamsamida. saranghaeyo. :)

T or F

2011-07-29T22:39:00.002+08:00

True or false.
Actions speak louder than words?
FALSE

True or false.
Pride is more important than everything?
FALSE

True or false.
Friendship comes first before everything?
TRUE

True or false.
Your feeling matters most and others don't?
FALSE

True or false.
Once your decision made, it can't be changed?
TRUE

True or false.
Nothing we say can change your mind?
TRUE

True or false.
You do everything for a reason?
TRUE

True or false.
Everything you said were lies?
ONLY YOU KNOW

True or false.
You don't think you deserve this?
TRUE

Since nothing we say can change your mind, you can think yourself :)
9 years of friendship. I know once you make up your mind, nothing will ever change it.
Nothing will ever be convincing enough for you to change your decision.
Unless your heart tells you not to.
You talk of pride.
Everyone has pride :)
Everyone's pride gets hurt once in a while.

In this world, of more than 39482103491218570148571013204930485629398449856898213 human beings, your pride matters a lot, does it :)
I understand things have always been the way you wanted it to be.
But for once, accept.
And grow up.
You're the one who says I need to grow up.
So please.
Listen.

We need you a lot.
Basically, technically, that summarises everything.
Whatever we've said, we meant it :)
Those others who wanna leave,
one sentence and we went off.
But to you.
You know how much we tried to convince you.

I'm accepting su slowly and slowly.
So why don't you? :)
In life, you make choices and you accept choices people made.
You can create your own path or follow others.
It's your choice.
FOLLOW or CREATE.
It's all up to you.

So.
Think.

IKR :)

2011-07-27T21:31:00.002+08:00

I love blogging with my wet shower towel around my head and dropping off my shoulders.
I feel protected and safe :)
I believe nothing will hurt me when I'm in there.

AGM :)

Form 2s :)
Thanks for your effort and hard work :)
Your performance was awesome :)
Thanks for working so hard on it even though you guys had so little time.
You guys seriously are amazing ;)
*tepuk tepuk pbsm ;)*

Form 3s :)
Thanks for all the money and effort you guys put into this performance :)
For the guitar and for the glowsticks :)
You guys are amazing :)
Next Big Bang Big Show in dewan bestari smk ab :D
By meng sim and the gang :D
Thanks :)
*tepuk tepuk pbsm ;)*

Form 4s :)
We manage to pull through today.
Are we awesome or what?!
Making last minute invitations.
Preparing last minute eating utensils.
Perfecting little details last minute.
We pulled it through :)
We did it! :D
We made ajks cry ;)
Are we awesome or what :D

AJKs :)
Thanks for the last dance :)
Actually, I have lots to say. :)
But I couldn't.
Why?

Cause I respect your decision.
Cause I respect everything the board has chosen.
I'll follow whatever ordered :)
I'll do whatever asked :)
Even though I don't really like it.
It's not about me anymore now,
it's about all of us,
making pbsm,
and mostly the ex ajks
proud of us ;)

Being a junior since form 1.
Seeing how every batch of form 5 go up the stage.
Seeing how excited they get.
Today it was my turn.
Excited? No.
:)

Did 4 years drift by just like that?
First it was christopher, hoo keen, serene, fui teng etc :)
Then it was wani, ka hou, sook shian, xian jin, sabrina etc :)
And then jeng yee, zi yao, eu nis, hyn yi etc :)
Today it was us.
I suddenly feel old :)

Haha but please.

i show no mercy ;)

So you better watch out :3

2011-07-27T20:49:00.004+08:00

I hate track mills.
Absolutely hate em.
What's the point of running.
When you can't feel your hair flying?
When you can't even feel the wind brushing your face.
I wanna run like there's no boundaries.
Like there's
no
end.

promise

2011-07-26T22:34:00.002+08:00

I wanna keep my promise :)
I'll try very hard to ;)

Running.
Haha, it's been a long time since I ran like that.
I used to do that like everyday when I was in primary.
It brought life back to me :)
Just by running :)

I let everything go and just

run.

My lack of sleep is getting into me.
I think I better go sleep now :)
AGM week :)
Haha all the best everyone :)

That man.
Has been playing in my mind over and over again.
:)
hyun bin :3

may all sides be seen and heard
may justice be served

one in a million

2011-07-24T16:09:00.006+08:00

Aish. Haven't been sleeping much lately. :) For the first time in my life, I see the dark circles under my eyes hahaha :D But it's all worth it ;)

For once I'm glad I got someone's signature ;) Even if it's just a lame one haha! You have no idea how much I've been through to get that signature, which is like so freaking hard. :D Anyways, haha, it was worth it ;) It's for the family. Ahh I'm so proud of myself :P yes seriously haha! :D

I'm going have to take care of stuff like that more often now. I'm getting ready. :) Ready to grow up mentally ;)

Oh yes, I've been watching Secret Garden lately. :) It's a nice drama. Hahaha, hyun bin is really a different person compared to kim hyun joong :) The feeling they both give me are totally different :D Both are so special to me ;) Heeee I haven't forgot about taemin no worries ;) But still, hyun bin is like hahaha (Y) so yeng ;) Kim Joo Won :) Haha so yeng. He's in marine now ;) My second favourite military service :D Err my favourite service is air force ;) Actually I wanted to join the air force when I was young. It was my dream :D Haha, maybe I'll join in one day ;))

Stay safe hyun bin :) They say military services change people :)

Lately, I've been reflecting myself a lot. Compare myself with other people.

I'm a girl who.
Wears a nightgown to sleep.
Must drink carbonated drinks with a straw.
Nosebleeds easily.
Is particular about my feet's cleanliness.
Wears a hairband whenever I go out.
Wears a slipper at home.
Gets more hyper when I get less sleep.
Can ride a horse without falling.
But fall when I walk.
Is extremely scared of cats.

Wow the list can go on forever.

Please don't simply describe not yeng people as yeng. Then yeng will mean nothing :)

Next week. I'm turning 16.

1
6

Hmm, there're gonna be A BIG responsibility that I'm gonna carry very soon :) I'm getting ready. Haha like how my gramma always say. Your job forever is to expand the land. When you reach the point you couldn't, fill the ocean. Gramma, I'll listen to you ;)

I usually get excited when my birthday's coming. But this year, obviously, I'm not as hyper as I used to be. I forgot my birthday's coming. Until my mom reminded me. Really. :) It's just.. :) troublesome to turn 16 in my family ;)

Ahh, the reason I've changed my blog link, I don't want other people to view my blog. Those of you who are reading, do not share my link ;) Just remember it. Don't give it to others. :) Thanks. There's a reason why I'm doing this ;)

Secret garden ;)

that man

LALALALALALA

2011-07-20T22:57:00.002+08:00

So so so hahaha I've been so high after my long nap :D I woke up at like 9 just now hahaha :D And had dinner at like so late :D Wheeeeee my first time dinner at a late hour :) Tired haha.

Had senaman robik this morning :D It was fun :DD Hahaha funny :D I think I laughed more than I exercise :D Exercising and flexing my cheek bones :D Wheeee!!

Probation starts today :O My mentor is very cute hahaha! :D And thank god the places she jaga are simple simple places :) Ahh so far, prefect duties remind me of the old times lol. Wonder how I survived really. Woke up so early today, I can't even remember being on the way to school. I somehow just appear in front of the school gate this morning. HAHAHA!

Ern and then interview, it was okay I guess haha. I was laughing most of the time when I'm not supposed to. :) I didn't cry wow that's a first in PBSM interview history :) I told myself not to cry and I didn't. :D

One thing I don't understand: since when do I have mood swings -__________-

Haha, I admit I cry easily when it comes to interviews but please I don't have mood swings. I either wake up with a mood or a good mood. There's no mood swings in my daily life kay. So whoever said that please get your facts right :D I seriously don't get moodswings -____- How can you be happy in the morning and emo in the afternoon. Isn't that like abnormal or something lol. HAHAHHA!

As far as I'm concern, size doesn't matter as long as the will to serve is there. If size is everything then shouldn't politicians or powerful beings be like super big sized o.o wow, imagine a meeting with people who can't even buy a suit from a normal store :D Won't that be interesting hahahaha!! :D My point is: in this world, it seems like size matters a lot, but seriously, so what -____-

Stress :D I rasa kan hahaha I feel I can handle stress well :D I mean I don't go nuts or anything haha. I just have to breathe in and breathe out :D B2ST!! :D Gosh I'm getting so random these days :D I'm so high noww wheeeeeee!! :D I feel like I can touch the sky :D

So basically, the interview was really okay :D I didn't cry and that's what matters :D

Kawad and friendship. Sorry. I chose both :) I won't let either one go. Seriously. But I won't let my friends get hurt because of kawad. Because at the end of the day, friends are what matters the most. When they asked me this question, the summarized version of it was:

so it's shi ern or kawad la?

Kawad means a lot to me :)
So does friendship.
It's like choosing between my parents.
Impossible to decide :)

Haha I respect the ajks' decisions :)

Cheers! To PBSM :)

fluck fluck fluck

2011-07-19T22:45:00.003+08:00

Wheeeeee :D It's like my new phrase now. Fluck ;) Heeeee :3 So polite yet it hints somethinggg bwahahaha!!

Guess what, probabation starts tomorrow. BLOODY TOMORROW. I'm like wtf great now I have to wake up early and go to school before like what? 6.45 which is freaking early and it's usually the time I leave for school and now you expect me to be in there around that time or earlier. GREAT. I wonder how did I ever survive form 3. LOL. Waking up early, imagine the pain -___- especially now, when all I can do is sneeze.

Have been blowing my nose like 298235098432683259822358917450814375 times this day. Gosh, those people in tuition were looking at me like I've got a disease or something -__- Hahaha! I know it's annoying. My nose hurts and I've killed 1 tree TT 1 box of tissues gone! Thanks to those snots -___- hahaha fluckk :DD

The ajk list is out. :D Thank god I'm not innit :P Don't wanna have more stuff to do than I already have :D Heee congrats to those who got it ;) My pleasure working with you all :D ~~well maybe not all of you all~~ Hahaha so to prefects ;)

Oh gosh, oh gosh, I miss pbsm camp like hell much :) broga broga broga :D broga all the way bwahaha! xD Miss everything there. Heeeee :3 It's just so memorable ;)

Oh yeah did I tell you. PREFECT NEEDO DO FREAKIN ORIENTATION. -_____- Just great :D I'm so free right now I don't mind getting signatures from other people :DD This is gonna be fun!! :DD

PBSM interview tomorrow. Crap shite hahaha! :D Whenever it comes to interview, I'm calm when I'm outside but when I go into the interview I can either make it work like pbc, or make me look like shite like in previous pbsm interviews. Gosh, hope they won't ask emotional questions D: I'm a loser at those -___- Like seriously hahaha.

Have to study a lil pc I think.. Gosh hahaha! :D

The funniest thing happened. When my mom asked me what I wanted for my birthday present, I actually said my birthday is still months away. When it's actually like coming real soon. Haha, I don't usually forget my own birthday -___- maybe I'm too busy this year lol. Haven't thought of a birthday present yet :D Wheeeeeeee :3

Anyways, MISS BROGA LIKE SHITEE WHEEEE!! :D those instructors especially. AHLEX! :D

When it comes to losing stuff, it's mainly your fault who left it there in the first place unattended to. Kind hearted people will take it and return it to you. But not everyone see life that way :) Everyone's at fault. So don't point your finger specifically just at someone. Cause you don't know the truth yet :)

Gosh, gotta go print the orientation paper and then try to sleep. -___- Although it's still so bloody early. :) Well, that's my sacrifice for the prefect board..

i wanna climb a tree one day :)

!@#)(%%(@^_!(%)$#(%)$^

2011-07-18T22:11:00.002+08:00

My first time falling sick after an awesome camp.
This sucks.
To the max.
Currently having boxes of tissues in front of me.
Tissues all over -___-
Keep sneezing and blowing my nose wth!
The rubbish bin beside me and cough syrup taste in my mouth D:
Gosh this sucks.
I'm supposed to be so so so high after camp.
Instead, now I'm sick.
Like really really sick. -__-
wtfluck :)
Must be the pond water the instructors poured on me that I accidentally swallowed.
IIISH!
I don't wanna be sick -______-
It's not like I get to stay at home or anything.

Fine I'm going to bed.
Even if it's stupid 10.13 at night.
Which is like freaking early.
But for my health,
whatever!
I bet I'm gonna be in a bad mood tomorrow -_____-

I miss broga like a lot :)
K bai :D

pbsm camp 2011

2011-07-17T20:49:00.002+08:00

It's soooo fun like seriously hahahah :D

First off, I wanna thank the ajks for organising a wonderful camp that we're gonna remember forever :)) And the ajks for scaring us like shites hahaha :D this is the first obh that I was actally freaked out. Especially stella.. And isabella :P most of my group members were scared ahahaha! :D thanks for putting in so much effort :D

Ahhh my group-- big bang :D

jian yik: group leader :DDD thank you for being such a brave person :D although you were reluctant to go into the spooky toilet but you did it first anyways cause shaza didn't want me to go in. :P and thanks for your acting skills ;)) amazing how you can bend your gender hahahha :D and thanks for flipping my boat

xue lame: thanks for coming to camp :DD you're awesomee :DD xueleng the xue lame hahaah! :D thanks for coming to camp and hope you won't get nightmares for obh ;)) ahh don't needo apologize for not opening the toilet doors ;) i knew you were scared like shite :DD hahaha and kayaking with yujin haha :D and chor dai di in your room :D thanks for the junkfood ;)

meng sim: meng simmm!! :D thanks for the torchlight! :D and all the junkfood :)) and your voice ;)) seriously hahaha even though you sore throat also shout till so geng hahah!! impressive :D and you're very brave :)) at times when most of our group members dare not do it, you'd volunteer and be the first to go. thanks for your courage :)) really, haha thankiu :)

su jane: thanks for being there all the time during obh ;) and thanks for the strepsils :D and your acting was greatt bwahaha! :D thanks for everythinggg :))

dawn: thanks for coming to camp :)) you're a neat freak hahaha sorry to say but i've been seeing you clean your dorm like 29483905823908670893475 312 times in this camp hahhaa! thanks for being so cooperative in the games. thanks for everythinggg hahaha :DD

sue sie: thanks for your junkfood :D i know when you come to camp you'll bring tons of junkfood with you :D so i'll just call you when i'm hungry. and thanks for always giving me junkfood :D and so sorry if i ate too much :P too hungry hahaha! next time we should practice more on how to chor dai di :D then you'll be a pro :D

shi ern: thanks for going to the toilet with me for like 398483215704985714857 times in camp :DD sorry my bladder's so small :D thanks for accompanying me to the toilet to shower :D and thanks for entering the man's toilet with me :D hahahaha!

wei ming: happy belated birthday ;)) although sometimes what you did annoyed me but still haha you're so brave lol. everything go first, do first. drop into the pond first :D hahaha and thanks for washing my plates ;))

yujin: thanks for kayaking with mee :DD hahaha! we both kayak macam yes :D but actually we memang yes bwahahah! :D we pro dyy whee :D and thanks for coming to camp :)) i like your shirt hahaha! :D

jin wei: thanks for coming to camp ;)) and thanks for being so helpful everytime ;) you deserve best camper :D and err hope you enjoyed playing my phone hahaa lol. and thanks for everything ;))

dexz and chak: i'm so so so terribly horribly sincerely sorry i threw eggs at you.. :O if cannot come out i help you wash arr :)) so so so sorry hahaha :D

casserene: happy birthday cass :) you're a strong and determined person and you're a good friend :) i'm so sorry i ruined your supposedly-dance with dexz by asking you to partner with me. and dexz i'm so so sorry haha. hope you enjoyed the dance todayyy :PP with ahem! haha you seem so happy with ahem! :D

the instructors in broga: ALEX!!! hahaha you're so funny seriously, like shite!! Ahh haha thanks for being our instructors and we seriously had a lot of fun :) hahaha this camp is so niceee :D

conclusion: thanks for everything :)

I'm never gonna forget this camp :)) ever.
It's just like pbc camp :) with another batch of wonderful people.

The moment when obh ended :)
The moment when shin ju (?!) threw me into the pond :)
The moment when I went into the spook toilet with xue lame :)
The moment when I sang in the bathroom just so that the others know me and shi ern are in there :)
The moment when I played the swing thing and fell into the puddle and got it right after tries :)
The moment when campfire started :)
The moment I stepped into the pond and found it mushy and gross :O
The times we chor dai di ;)
The times when we threw rocks into the pond, scaring fishes away ;)
The performance ;)
The OBH of a lifetime.

Thanks for everything :))

so i'm like wtf

2011-07-14T21:47:00.002+08:00

Maybe it's because I slept too early yesterday.
And I know my mood wasn't good.
I tried to keep my distance today.
I know I'll get annoyed by every little bloody thing.
I shouldn't sleep so early next time.
Really, I shouldn't.
Lesson learnt.
Moody morning.
Tired afternoon.
Liveless evening.
Until I got my nap :D
Then I'm back to my normal self ;)

Maybe it's my mood today.
But still, your actions really give me a different impression of you.
Not to say I have the right to stop you from doing what you do.
But can you please at least show some respect?
Not everything have to go at your will okay?
Don't do whatever you want.
How you want.
Whatever shite!
Makes me sick.
Can't you just follow the RULES!?
If everything goes as everyone wishes,
the world is chaotic.
So please,
think about others.
Don't just think about yourself.
Don't be so selfish.
Because the world ain't about you only.
Actions speak louder than words.
Actions hurt more than words themselves.

Clean up your act.

PBSM camp tomorrow ;)

ftw :)

2011-07-13T20:15:00.002+08:00

FTW. :) For The Win :D
4K.
Rocks :)
No need to doubt that.
We were awesome :D
Well I know we were :D
We did our very very best on stage!
Orphans yeah!
Now, no matter how the results turn out,
there's one conclusion that sums up everything:
sabians are so dramatic ;)

Gosh, you.make.me.sick.
I'm so sorry to say that.
But just looking, seeing,
makes me sick.
Like down to the gut that kind of sick :)
Hahaha I'm so sorry but sometimes,
I just wanna slap some senses into you ;)
The world doesn't evolve around one person.
But everyone around you.
SICK. :)
That's how you make me feel :3
That's the special place you get in my heart ;)
there's always a reason behind why
people from the past who didn't make it into your future ;)

fyl fyl fyl ;)
Fluck you wheeeeeeeeeee :3
Life's not all about you fluckerr :DD
You can't make me think the way you want.
You can create your own imaginary world and live in it.
All the best ;)
I hope you enjoy facing reality once in a while :)
Fluckkkkk :D

Can't wait to go to camp :)

there's a new swing in school

2011-07-12T23:33:00.002+08:00

And it's most probably gonna be my new favourite place to be now :)
Provided if no one's there.
And there's only me alone.
Oh how I love solitude now.
It seems more solitary.
Safer to walk alone.
Cause it seems no one beside me,
close to me,
will try to harm me.
Loneliness can speak for itself.

There comes a time in your life,
when you figure out,
who matters,
who never did,
and who always will.
When that time comes,
don't worry about the people in your past.
Because there's always a reason,
why they did not make it to your future. :)

I knew you wouldn't come.
So no point asking when I already know the answer.
No?
Haha, hasn't it always been?
Since young :)

Life is a funny thing.
;)

people come and go

But I'm really gonna miss them when they graduate :')
No doubts about that.
The form 5 of SMKAB 2011 :)

My heart is aching to go on the swing again :)
And to let men chau swing it to the max
I'm wishing that this afternoon would replay :)
My very own do nothing day

Drama tomorrow.
Gonna be as dramatic as ever :)

rules of a lady #152:
if you're happy before you met someone,
you can be happy after they've gone.

I'm gonna live by it now ;)

I don't look back.
What's done is done.
That, you should know :)

Bye people :D

2011-07-10T21:39:00.006+08:00

stfu bitch :)

hurt is something you won't understand

Ahh haha sorry for the rude beginning. It's just. You're so freaking rude I feel like slapping you the whole time ya know :)) Sorry. You make me sick. Nothing's gonna change that.

Nyways, had IU day today. Awesome. Yeng. Hahaha everything I describe is yeng yeng yeng lol. It's like my favourite adjective but not everyone can apply to it. :D And well, thanks to all interacters for all the hard work. It all paid off ;)

And gosh reggie, good job. :) It was so awesome wheeeeeeee :D

Those who missed it, gosh you really shouldn't have hahaha.

Aish, should be looking for oral evidence but ending up facebooking and have no idea what to do for oral. Gosh. So lost. :)

July's gonna be busy. Camp. Trainings. Interviews. AGMs. Hahaha yay can't wait :D

Really should go now. :)

stfu cause it's not your ground to speak

put your hands up

2011-07-09T11:49:00.003+08:00

Wow, my very first campfire :) It was simply awesome. Haha, to summarise it all, may take a few minutes. But I guess all the effort the scouts put into it deserve everything after their days of hard work.

Reached school at 5.30. Was kinda sleepy cause I just woke up from nap at gramma's. Was the first one to register. So bangga :D The sky was still bright. No sign of darkness just yet, started setting up the stalls around the volleyball court and the night's about to begin. :D

There was a snail there. But it was gone after campfire. :( Who killed it?! I'm so gonna make sure you go into hell -____-

8pm. Nightfall.
Twilight.
Campfire starts. ;)

The moon shone so brightly. And then the scouts started the campfire. :D It was huge. Amazing :D Hahaha hy and wk brought stuff like torches :D And lit up the bunch of sticks :D SO AWESOME. And then the fire just started burning. Sparks fly up the sky. It's so pretty I don't think I'll ever forget that :)

The flame shadows on the wall, it was so nice :) Haha, utter silence when everyone sees it, cause it's too nice :)

The performances were awesome :D So sorry weh sx, I bursted out literally when I saw you in that skirt. HAHAHAHA! So so so so sorry I saw you right away. So sorry I burst out laughing :D Part of me knows that some part of the sketch contains true lines the character actually wanted to say ;) It's mushy but still hahaha, it'll come out sooner or later ;) Whoe form 4 ;D

And form 5. YENG. Soom. Fiction. I'll be back. Awesome. Yeng :) Seriously I keep clapping and wow my eyes glued to everyone dancing out there. :D so so so yeng :D Now I believe they can be the next beast and 2pm ;)

After the campfire, god, the whole place was like the morning after pasar malam. So gross and dirty. Haha but we all helped packing up :D So it was cleaner. Well, at least a bit ;)

I admire everyone's courage when they're out there.
I know you've tried your best :)
I know there's more that you can show.
Because
I believe in miracles ;)

It was the best night of my life. So lifely and the fire was awesome :D

SST 78. You guys rock ;)

solitude

2011-07-07T00:13:00.002+08:00

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So I'm finally free. It seemed like forever but it lasted not too long. Times that we spent together seemed so long yet it drifts past so quickly we don't notice. All the time under the sun, only for one reason, some unwilling and some eager, all standing waiting for orders. Haha, that's what I like about most in kawad-- we follow orders.

After spending 2 months or more? with group 2 and 5, seems like I've gotten to know em more. :) It's not easy to train new comers in kawad asas especially when they're totally clueless. And yet when they kawad like pros in front of you, you can't help but feel happy inside. You feel like you've done your part in teaching them. It's sweet victory inside.

When the formation was done, relief broke out. Really, it's like a weight pulled off or something cause my shoulders felt so light. I've done my part, now it was the member's turn and I trust them will all my heart that they will do their best in the competition, just like how me and Jian Yik will do.

Although there were flaws, I don't expect us to be flawless. But the hormat part was quite awkward, well, I couldn't blame them since they learnt the formasi last minute, but all in all, I'm really impressed of their performance. And I'm seriously damn proud of all 15 of you. And jy of course haha, don't be so nervous ;) Part of me would want to continue kawad forever, I don't mind getting tanned, well, at least no too tanned :D

So now, kawad is officially over for this year. Next year a whole new squad is formed, with different people and different commander. And still, I hope everything goes smoothly.

I always wondered why sab takes kawad so seriously. Other schools don't bother much about kawad, but our school, it's like war. When it's kawad time, the whole volleyball is a war zone. :) battlefield. I guess it sorta is. All teams prepping waiting for battle against each other to be the best. The spirit in everyone is so obvious :)

Haha, I'm thankful that all 15 people came today. And I'm so sorry if I ever offended you, I didn't mean it, it was so that you would come kawad or focus more. Please don't keep a grudge :) As for those who wasn't in the squad, you guys missed the fun :)

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So now, campfire is like tomorrow! TOMORROW! xD I'm so excited really, but now, I'm kinda worried about my transportation problems haha. Cause it's like err, dad has to drive me to school 3 times. O.O And once more is late at night at around like 11? Wow, that's like too much to ask from dad in a day. Haha, so I'm gonna ask him nicely tomorrow.

*keeps fingers crossed*

I really hope I can go ;)

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I'm gonna be 16 soon :) When I was young, I've never thought I could stay till 16. Hmm, I had weird thoughts when I was young hahaha don't bother. 16. 16. 16. Still seem like 12 though. I don't mind looking like a child, it just bugs me sometimes.

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If you wanna confront me just do so. :) I'm only gonna tell you one sentence.

respect to be respected

I mean you no harm. I won't slap you, ~~i think..~~ I just don't want juniors to be sho rude to anyone/everyone/seniors.

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It's late. :) Well it's still early for me though. 12.27. July 7th.
July's so amazing :)

what's done is done
-aang-

respect

2011-07-02T20:25:00.002+08:00

This post is strictly rude and you don't have to read it. It's based on my feelings exactly. :) I can't hold it in much much longer :D

How old are you?! ANSWER ME. You're like what? 3 years freaking younger than me and you're acting like you're the boss of me. Wow, that's some attitude of treating a senior no? The way you talk, I will never forget. You're so rude hahaha, I wanted to report you for verbally bullying senior. Your attitude please miss two face loser ass, change yourself. No point acting so good in front of one senior and be a bitch to another. There's no needo cause you know why. I'm gonna tell on you. No point regretting what you just did. How dare you call me that girl. NO ONE CALLS ME THAT. And no one asks me to get out of a room like that. You wanna join etiquette classes?! If you want me to leave can you ask nicely? I'm not asking for a please la, just ask nicely. wtf. And please, don't point at me with your bloody shits of paper. I hate being pointed at. You know. Now I know why I didn't like you in the first place: you're just gonna make me hate you. I don't care if I annoyed you. I did nothing wrong. I didn't like bloody shout like the others in the class. I was playing chess. Wow, sorry I didn't know it was against the school homeroom rules that no chess is allowed in class. And wow I'm so sorry you didn't know I was a form 4 student. WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM. DO I NEEDO PAINT IM FORM FOUR on my bloody forehead?! Wow, really I have no idea how to describe how I felt back then. I know I'm making a big fuss out of this but please I used to honour the seniors. I respected em like so much not even near how you treat a senior. And now here you are ruining all the respect. I don't know what's your problem woman. So kurang ajar. Hahaha, let me teach you how to respect next year. No wait, I don't wanna be caught dead being with a rude two faced girl like you.

RESPECT.